TIFFANY :D

#708: I'm the shell of a girl that I used to know well

2012-02-02T11:38:00.000-08:00

HI HI HI HI HI HI HI HI.

ISN'T HE CUTE ? :))

Alright just a short short short update! (I'll try to make it short cos i'm lazy to upload pictures but posts without pictures are freaking hell boring )

Pardon my lack of updates - the first month of 2012 is already over and now it's already like Page 34 of 366. Wow, that's pretty fast isn't it? :)

Anyways i guess 2012 started off pretty well for me.

First off -
1. My results.

I guess i was really happy for my friends and myself - our efforts paid off. Congrats everyone ;)
I really have to thank my study partners eg Yr Aishah Xy Eric Joshua Ernest Ger Shar. And those who supported me and helped me through, and my teachers who didn't give up on me.

And the rest who looked down on me and said i'd go ite you guys can just rot and die la K jk, look what karma did to you.

2. Work.
Work and schedule was really awesome in jan and i kinda made new friends who were all very nice.

3. Chinese new year !!
Had an awesome time camwhoring with Jaythan ;)

4. JAE POSTING.
At first i was so afraid of the posting cos i'm working that day and i was afraid that if i don't get into my course i can't possibly express my sadness to a daoster BUT IT TURNED OUT OKAY so i was a happygirl1995 for the day. YAY. :)

Alright it was supposed to be a short update but this took me 1 hour.
ITS 4.22AM, NIGHTS.

#707: How could this happen to me

2012-01-27T09:37:00.000-08:00

I open my eyesI try to see but I'm blindedBy the white light
I can't remember how?I can't remember why?I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the painAnd I can't make it go awayNo, I can't stand the pain
How could this happen to me?I've made my mistakesGot nowhere to runThe night goes on
As I'm fading awayI'm sick of this lifeI just wanna screamHow could this happen to me?
Everybody's screamingI try to make a soundBut no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edgeI'm hanging by a threadI wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when nothing matteredAnd I can't explain what happenedAnd I can't erase the things that I've done, no I can't
How could this happen to me?I've made my mistakesGot nowhere to runThe night goes on
As I'm fading awayI'm sick of this lifeI just wanna screamHow could this happen to me?
I've made my mistakesI've got nowhere to runThe night goes on
As I'm fading awayI'm sick of this lifeI just wanna screamHow could this happen to me?

Just so you know this feeling's taking control over me and I can't help it

2012-01-18T08:03:00.001-08:00

Can't help feeling that everything is my fault. Can't help thinking that things are gonna change from this moment onwards. Can't help feeling so hopelessly helpless. Can't help feeling beyond insignificance.

#705: Just so you know

2012-01-17T07:27:00.000-08:00

HI.

This post came late i know, i was too lazy / busy / tired to blog.
Ah but at least i bother to write on my diary so that makes it even huh. :)

I've been wanting to blog about reflections/new year resolutions but ah, better late than never.
Anyways, last year, 2011, ended pretty decently.

Remember my 2011 resolutions ?

Let's see how many i completed last year.

- fuckcare problems.
I think i manage to do this pretty fairly. At least i don't give a damn to those who don't respect themselves anymore.

- ok i must be very organised next year. (x)
TALK ABOUT BEING ORGANISED? NOPE.
I'm constantly being told to clear up my room / my life is damn busy last year. HAHAHA.

- Save $ and my itouch x.x
YEAP I ACHIEVED THIS IN JUNE. THUMBS UP FOR ME. ;)

- Results (x)
Not really for school exams. How's 30 points for prelims ?

- Daily revision means no comp . (x)
You know that didn't happen for sure. :x

- Good results for O's :D
:)

- O levels this year will be effing hard, so i must work hard!
I guess i did.

- Write down all homework on this book . (x)
No i didn't do that. :x

- Stay happy and have a happy birthday :D
Achieved ! Another thumbs up !

Okay that means i completed like 4.5/9 resolutions.
Some of my resolutions are not really realistic last year so i didn't really take them seriously. HAHAHA. Oh well but at least i manage to complete some !

Now for 2012 Resolutions.

1) For everyone around me to be more or less happy, satisfied and safe.

2) Continue being contented, less dramas, less conflicts.

3) Get satisfactory O level results and get into my dream course !

4) Take more pictures, have more happy memories !
(IGOTANEWCAMERA :) )

5) Spend my birthday happily.

6) Gain weight.

7) I need to see 4 digits in my bank book. :x

8) Learn japanese.
And abit of dialects here and there cos' being multi-lingual is cool like that B)

9) Make new friends in my future tertiary!

10) LEARN HOW TO COOK.
i figured that i'll learn how to cook something new every month so by the end of 2012, i'll learn 12 new things ! HEHE SMART OR WHAT. Jan's one was spaghetti !

I prepared that for Yuerong HAHAHA.

Okay this pretty much more realistic than my 2011 ones. Tata.
Overall my 2011 was pretty awesome thanks to many many people.
I couldn't even thank them enough for those memories they gave me in 2011. :)

Baking cookies at Xy's

POP :)

March chalet. :)

Botanical gardens.

Thanks everyone. :)

The day I was upset

2012-01-15T07:10:00.001-08:00

That was exactly how I felt when I was upset/had pms 2 days ago.

11:11 ;

#703: Embracing changes

2012-01-02T00:29:00.000-08:00

OKAY HI IM BACK.
I'm supposed to blog yesterday cos its 1/1 and the date is very pretty but OH WELL WHATEVER. I'll be the cute one and blog on 2/1 ;)
( okay this is a draft okay the actual date now is 12/1/12. procrastination, ooops. ;x )
Happy new year anyways !

Anyways i shall start off with my dec holidays, i've been saying i want to blog about it but i'm too freaking lazy and tired to start.

yup ! during one of my work days Wei Sin and Ernest just went and drop by me ! So we went home together and took pictures along the super pretty orchard road hehehe ;)

And you know i was so crazy and excited about christmas, everyday i'm happy and in a jolly mood cos' of the Christmas decor and carols and stuff hehehe. Awesome stuff !

Up next are outings and stuff, it's like the day after i work, i had to go out, after going out, i had work. i couldn't even take a break. omg. but oh well, it was worth it. ;)

1. My second belated birthday celebration ♥ - 23/12/2011
with Wei Sin Ernest Eric Geraldine Xin Ying hehehe

YES they bought another cake hahah.

So i had to go through all the awkwardness and stuff that i mentioned in my previous post ALL OVER AGAIN HAHAH. We had a mini cake smash !

And i was late and you know what Eric did ? He called me twice to say that the couple was fighting and he bth already and i'm like, 'no i don't believe you ! '. ooops !

And they were super cute cos..

they actually pasted all this signs and stuff from the lift to the void deck .

hahah, and the best part?
I SAW NONE OF THEM COS I WALKED THE SHORT CUT. HAHA.

one of them was my fave sign but the picture was nowhere to be found :( .
it was smth like ( P/s. You're not the extension of blah blah blah etc etc etc ) HAHAHA. *wink*

After that they headed to my house for a short while before heading to Town. ;)

All these picts were taken at the big xmas tree at Cineleisure !
Had to combine them cos there were too much pictures ! hahah :)

It was raining that day. On my birthday and on 23rd.
BUT OH DEAR WEATHER, that didn't stop us from camwhoring. ;)

And we went to ate at Xing Wang !
omgly heaven HAHAHHAHA.

Oh we also watched Alvin & the Chipmunks 3 together!
I freaking love the chipmunks, esp Theodore ;)

Had an awesome day on 23rd, thanks guys ! :)

2. Christmas at Orchard

Spent my Xmas with Xinying cos' we both had work in town !
HAHAH we were super retarded lorh i swear . tsktsk. ;)
But i think Christmas was really well spent with Xinying, and the crowd wasn't that many as well. :)

Okay this pictures here were actually taken on the 23rd la, i cheated :x

the christmas tree so pretty :(

I freaking love this woman la ;)

Okay this was the authentic one taken on the 25th itself,
you have to understand i'm blogging at 3am now so yeap :(

3. Work !

I've been pretty attached to Taka staff and Kino staff cos' the ppl there were really really nice and easy to talk to ! Most importantly, i am super comfortable being myself in front of them so yeap ;) Peace !

OH AND YOU KNOW WHAT..

Elos actually gave me chocolates for xmas present, i was so surprised ok :(
in return i bought chocolates for her and huge candy canes for the rest of the staff. hehe. :)

And this was drawn on the last day of work, supposingly 25th as well. :)
I was so bored on most of the days that i designed a new signature for myself and drew my fave jap cartoon - Totoro! HAHAHAH. Don't laugh at my drawing la.

I practically had 8 hours to slack that day but i was super entertained by the staff.
I'm so gonna miss them ! :D

4. Mission Impossible ' catch up with Teck Cheong ;)

DO I LOOK LIKE TOM CRUISE ?!

apparently this was taken on the 23rd as well so yes i cheated again :x
But ya la i forget take pict with Tc so no choice ! :(

Anyways the movie was awesome and we had a nice catch up !
PLUS he wore PINK that day and gave me a super cute birthday card !
THANKS TELETUBBIE ;)

5. Shopping

Ok i went shopping with my mom and i freaking love her to bits cos' she's willing to shop at F21 and New Look. So generous of her that day, and this only happens like once-in-a-millennium xD

6. Sherlock Holmes ' Lynn

Rawr ! NO PICTURES. i just realised :( .
We went to catch Sherlock Holmes, shopped at Somerset .
And i passed her the birthday present :)

7. Countdown on 31st !

I actually had work on the 31st, LOL.
Met Cavan and Eric in the afternoon to cut our hair and then watched The Darkest Hour 3D with Xy Jolene Eric. And it was damn embarrassing cos' we were rushing for time and supposingly walked into Xing Wang for lunch but left without eating cos we only had 2 more min to the movie. My line was - I need to go to the restroom, bye ! HAHAH embarrassing much. An epic first-time at the end of 2011 !

After that i went to work and met Yuerong Ernest and Wei Sin at night after work. We rushed t met the rest but in the end we still couldnt make it to countdown together so.. we met at 12.30 next year ! hahahah.

that day was madness. :)

pictures !

Awesome day, awesome life. :)

Tata.

#702: What makes me, me.

2011-12-28T09:06:00.000-08:00

SUP.

Just a short update cos i have work tmrw, life's been good.
I'm starting to get really attached to Taka staff cos they're really nice and friendly and funny people but i'm gonna get transferred to MP soon. Dangggg. :(

And this few days i've been going out alot alot and buying alot alot of stuff.
I don't wanna go on about my list cos that'd make me sound like a spendthrift but i guess that's the thing about working in town, you get all the sales first but also spend the most money. Meh :(

Christmas this year was pretty awesome. So i can say my december is very peaceful and awesome and fun? I'll blog about the details next time with pictures but all i can say now is i'm appreciating everything i have now. :)

And.. the release of O levels results is drawing nearer and if i say i'm not nervous i'm obviously lying. Some people can just say forget about O levels, just enjoy your time playing now but my insecurities won't stop haunting me. Gah.

Lastly i shall end off with a picture.

I know the worst punishment you can ever give to someone is guilt, when they can't even forgive themselves. But sometimes i wished i'd be a little bit more harsh last time, made more mistakes, cos it hurts seeing a friend being so guilty for what she had done before. Be it karma or a form of punishment, it's enough. Be kinder to yourself dear, you deserve better. The past is the past, it's all behind us. Time to step out of your past like i did, if i can do it, so can you. Be strong dear, it's how strong you stand that makes you, you. :)

#701: Sweetest 18 December ♥

2011-12-22T04:18:00.000-08:00

HI. I'M FINALLY SIXTEEN. :)

SHALL BACKTRACK TO MY BIRTHDAY. I know this post is kinda late, i wanted to blog about it straight after that but i had work the next few days + i was too tired x.x

Met up with Eric Hanson Wiratha Brenda and Atiqah at Bedok Inter for lunch / shop for chips before heading to Brenda's house. THE WEATHER WAS A BITCH, SERIOUSLY. :( WHY YOU RAIN ON MY BIRTHDAY. But thank god the bbq pit was sheltered so we're still able to bbq ! I was like an emo kid cos of the weather + teo kept threatening to push me down the water so in the end to avoid being pushed i went down the water MYSELF. :(

And then up at Brenda's house the girls was trying to keep me busy by camwhoring in the room while the rest took the cake outside. Like omgasofjalskjf i was surprised that they actually really bought oreo cheese cake. Hehe okay i'm touched :') Oh and i finally understood the awkwardness when everybody is singing birthday song for you. I didn't know how to react, so i just stood in front of the cake and smile/laugh like an idiot. x.x And and and. i actually used the wrong side of the knife to cut the cake. LOL.

Kays, pictures ! (no pictures at the pool cos being wet is not cute )

Okay i forgot to take a picture of the whole cake so this is the best i can make out of it.

Group photo !

Thanks Brenda for hosting everything ! :)

And Wiratha for paying for the cake !

AFTER THIS, CAMWHORE ALERT. :)

Xinying !!!!!!!!!!

You see Yuerong and her constipated face,
take picture with me is like wanting her life :(

HAHAH one more with her, i think this picture very funny.

THIS VAIN GUY HAD TO TAKE THREE PICTURES WITH ME COS HE KEPT SAYING HIS HAIR NOT NICE , WHAT NARCISSISM.

I was the ohime-sama of the day - according to camera-shy boy so he had to take a picture with me HAHAHA

AND ERIC THE BITCH. HMPH I WANT TO SLAP HIM.
k jk heheheheheheheheh thanks for the cake as well :)

and and and.
shall end off with a cute picture of me and chili boy 95

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#700: These days.

2011-12-16T06:07:00.000-08:00

Hi earthlings. :)

Okay sup i'm backkkkkkkkkk. Hols are really really busy !
Shall just blog whatever i can remember alright.

1. Catching up with Sharlene !
Caught Puss In Boots with her and had a nice chat with her at Starbucks. And its like we have so much to say that i was secretly thinking of buying another cup LOL. I will miss this cute bimbo till we meet again. ;)

Afterwards went to Kpool to find Yuerong Eric Wiratha and Hanson / homed with Joshua.

2. Sending the peeps off to Korea w Toh!
Was supposed to meet her at 1pm but i woke up at 2pm so we ended up meeting at 4pm omg!
Had Starbucks with her and then went to Airport to wish Nayli a happy birthday + give her present :)

It was a fine day with Xy, bet she missed me after Macau hehehehehe x)

3. Helping out at the Old Folk's. Heheheh around 12 people went and i helped Molly out with her admin stuff. Afterwards went with the guys to lunch.. We walked around 1 hour just to find Xing Wang. BUT IT WAS ALL WORTH IT BECAUSE

THE HK FOOD AT XING WANG IS SO OMGLY ASDGFKJLGS FREAKING NICE .

All of kupped money like its a buffet and ordered alot of food!

And despite how full we already were, we decided to order the dessert cos' it won't be complete without it..

tada ! (okay i know it looks wrong, we all burst out laughing eating it)
Everyone went in Xing Wang hungry, came out stuffed like a pig !

Oh yeay and i met Wei Sin after that to go shopping with me! ;)

And yesterday i dragged Eric out to shop with me hehehehhehe okay not really drag, i asked him thrice if he was sure and he didn't mind LOL but we ended up meeting with Weisin and Ernest and shopped around Orchard/Taka/Somerset. In the end when i went home, i realised that instead of buying tops at Somerset, i spent more money on food instead. Wtv :I

Anyways i'm working already !
Although it's in town, but it'll only be temporary until after X'mas, and i'll get transferred to MP.
Work was pretty okay because i get to make a new friend + the staff at Kino were really nice.
But everything changed when i got freaking transferred to the other side of Taka today. Fuckzxc. :(

Ah but oh well i just have to bear with it until end of dec to get transferred.
Yay, can't wait. ;)

Lastly, my birthday is coming up.

It doesn't have to be a fun birthday, nor a glamorous celebration. I just wish that nothing bad happens on my birthday, no conflicts, and everybody around me is happy, safe and sound.

Tata. :)

#699: White piano :')

2011-12-06T11:40:00.000-08:00

HI.

At this rate i wish i'd post less cos i'm bored and feeling like a bummer at home. So rotten :x
RAWRAWRAWRAWRAWRAWRAWRAWRAWRAWRAWRAWR

So bored i gonna die :(

BYE.

#698: I never needed you to be strong, i never needed you for pointing out my wrongs.

2011-12-04T10:49:00.000-08:00

I actually wanted to sleep, but since i couldn't really sleep well after two, i figured i might as well blog again. Its 3am now, that's when my house is completely silent - perfect for straightening out my thoughts.

Although i once mentioned that i don't ever regret my past because it shaped who I was into the present me, i never really wanted to bring it up as and when i like anymore. It'll sound like self-pity, which is not what i intended. The present and the future is all i care for now, and I just kept looking forward. But i don't know when did i started letting go all of this. In the midst of letting go some of my past, i lose some of myself too. I have no idea how to explain, but i guess that's where the change started. Changes.

Subconsciously i know i'm changing, but i thought it was only my attitude, the way i think and the way that i handle things that changed. But no, i was wrong, that was why some people who are part of my life started acting differently to me too. When my attitude changes, when the way i think changes, the way i handle things changes, so did many thing else. The way i talk changed, the way i react to certain things changed, the impression i gave to others changed, and even the way i walked. Ikr, wtf. I didn't even realise until i was being told. I think that's what they meant by qi zhi 气质 . I don't know how to explain it, but it's something you have it in you that makes you different from the rest. That something is also the impression you give to others when you present yourself - your attitude, your mannerism, your personality. Before i know it, i became one who seemed more confident but also more .. dao.

Okay that's not my main point. Nobody ever tells someone everything about yourself right? Like how you feel, how you think. Or at least i don't. Perhaps that's why people around me start to feel a distance. And i naively thought that regardless how great the distance is, how long you have not met, true friends will always understand and accept you if everything is better for you in the end. But at the end of the day, who are we ? Judgmental humans. It's kind of sad. Some people can tell me i'm changing for the worst in my face, behind me, just by judging me from the obvious changes. But do they even exactly know what kind of shit went through my mind? If i don't speak up, i won't be heard. That's true. But if you doubt me, then shouldn't you clarify? Who are you to assume that i've always been happy and your not part of it? Why not assume the other way round, that i've been sad and your not there for me? Superficial much. Before trying to deem me, before even trying to say anything to me, give me a chance and don't be too quick to judge. I may have changed for the worst in your eyes, but that's all for your own selfish good. Don't say i didn't try accommodating and thinking it was my fault, cos' i did. But if your really a true friend, you should be truly happy for me instead.

That sums up all i have to say to those who have doubted me before, but never ever had the chance to. Quite naive of me to still be thinking of true friend and this sort of happiness shit i know. But i just can't stand having my honesty and trust being doubted yet being denied of the chance to speak up. I may have forgiven that someone in the end, but i'll never accept this.

#697: Life like a awesome only :)

2011-12-04T09:17:00.000-08:00

Okay hi earthlings i'm back. ;)

Time passes so fast and it's already December. Yeap, December, the loveliest month of the year. Life after O's had been busy for me, all the gatherings and catching up and stuff.

Heheheh yesterday i went to send Wei Sin off at the airport with Eric and Ernest. Went for interview in the morning and then strolled around Tampines, then Marine Parade to look for Rong and then to the book fair. Eric actually bought the first book of his life there - I am number four, while i bought the sequel to it - The Power Of Six. And yesh i just finished reading The Power Of Six today, its a good book ! At night we had Astons, chit-chatted and sent Wei Sin off. :)

I'm so gonna miss Wei Sin until she gets back. Hehehe ;)

That's all for today, tata! :)

#696: Folded love.

2011-11-29T04:02:00.000-08:00

Okay hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii :)

Lets blog from last tuesday !
Went to Weisin's house to make sushi with Geraldine, Xin Ying, Yuerong and Ernest !!
Omg i didn't know sushi was so easy to make. its damn nice !! :D

Like a cute only right !!

Don't judge this okay, its yummy. ;)

NEXT UP I WANNA LEARN HOW TO COOK SPAGHETTI :))

Okay afterwards i think i kinda rot at home and stuff for a few days and headed for Resorts World in a rush. I packed my stuff and intended to cut my hair and everything in the morning, but i ended up late and not cutting my hair. So for three days i had ugly fringe and ugly hair, fml. :(

And i even forgotten to bring my cardigan and slippers(ok slippers was on purpose) cos i wanted to fit everything in my handbag.. everything in a rush. :/

But overall its kinda fun, like a typical chalet just that it's at a hotel.
the pity is that not much photos was taken cos' nobody brought a camera. Ikr, wasted. :(
First day was spent at the hotel, the guys went swimming, the girls went to the gym.
Vivo city for dinner, arcade then slept.

View from Hotel's balcony !

Second day was spent at the USS.

Okay i'm not very fond of theme parks + i have phobia of heights so i was more of looking forward to taking pictures but apparently no one brought cameras that day so IM A VERY SAD GIRL. I wanted to take picture with the ~~puppets~~ mascots (Kungfu Panda, Puss in boots ) :(

Plus the weather was pms-ing. Sunny , rainy, cloudy, rainy, sunny, rainy . and rainy rainy cold. Haha but its alright, I suppose i'll enjoy USS better next time if the weather isn't having pms. :)

Fell asleep like a pig on the sofa bed that day till 4am, i felt damn bad. :l

But oh well, overall it's kinda fun i guess.
Pictures !

Day 1 : Camwhoring @ Balcony :x

Yuerong! ♥

Jolene :)

one crazy picture :)

Hanson wanted to photobomb so might as well take together. :)

Day 2 : USS

Dry picture ! (look at short Eric behind trying photobomb HAHAHA)

Wet picture !
i look like some drop-soup-chicken D:
(luo tang ji or whatever in chinese)

Childhood babe !!
I dragged Eric Brenda and Yuerong to sit the merry go round with me!
HAHAHAHAH Eric's face was like -.- all the way .

And tata !! :)

P/S. You see that glowing lightstick ? ~~The person at USS gave that to me cos i was cute.~~
Hanson and Joshua bought the story HAHAHA.

TATA ! :)

#695: What goes around comes around.

2011-11-20T11:46:00.000-08:00

Its currently 3.49am and i'm supposed to be asleep.
But oh well, i have this sudden urge to blog. Boo.

Anyways, Xinying uploaded the pictures already . So yeap !

Wan Xuan, Nayli, Me, Xy, Eric and Joshua watched Real Steel together :)

Afterwards Wanxuan left and Brenda + Kietti joined us for Swensons.

And the guys took their self-love picture instead of taking for us !
Haha i find this picture kinda cute !

That's me and Birthday girl :)

Everyone :)

And, yesterday was grad day.
You know, the day that was supposed to be the best/most touching day of our secondary school life. But our sch's one is pathetic. :x Haha but oh well, at least there's one thing that's comforting - the Colors Award and the CIP one.

After grad day i went to catch You Are The Apple Of My Eye with Jolene Yuerong Eric and Joshua. Thankfully i managed to get in cos the person checked only the year.

It was a super cute and funny movie, and the ending was particularly touching as well. And it certainly taught me something.

This few days i've been looking at past memories, and you know it's been one year since i've been to Japan ? I just want to say, even though i wasted 3 years of my secondary school life, I'm glad that i made the right choice by going Japan. Life decided to be nicer to me. I appreciate what's given to me and I'm really glad. It's already graduation. It's sad to bring conflicts after Graduation.. I admit a very huge part of me was going to *inserts many idiotic things i said just now* , on impulse. But after i chilled i realised.. trying to talk some sense to idiots but failing makes me look even more stupid, so I decided to stop this idiocy. Yuerong is right. Chill and peace out* They say there's no rainbow without the rain. So i'm just waiting for the rainbow. I have faith in karma.

Anyways, happy birthday Wei sin !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(Ok pardon me for not attaching a picture here, its gonna be 5 am and i'm starting to get really lazy :x)

It was really nice to meet you in my life, and it was even nicer that your still my friend. Your like a recovered lost gem that i would never ever want to lose again. Fret not about the rain, cos' what lies waiting for you is the rainbow. And i'm gonna be here for you through the rain and witness the rainbow with you. You deserve better. Have a happy birthday alright, i smurf you! ♥

Oyasumi (:

#694: There is no other way, i get the final say.

2011-11-16T20:50:00.000-08:00

Happy Sweet Sixteenth dear (:

HIHIHIHIHIHIHIHI :)

Yesterday was Xin Ying's birthday !
Happy sweet sixteenth dear !
One year have passed so quickly!
Hahah, even though our character may have differences, but i really didn't regret meeting her. Couldn't imagine life without her heheh :)

XINYING. If you are reading this, THANKYOUSOMUCH.
Thanks for being there when i needed someone.
Thanks for being a wonderful friend.
Thanks for everything you've done :)

AND AND AND stay happy and lovely and cute and sweet and continue singing okay !
Love die you. :')

So yesterday we celebrated her birthday !

Lunch-ed at Wasabi-san first with Xy Eric Joshua, then Real Steel at Shaw House :)
Real Steel was awesome, i think it's the nicest movie i watched in 2011.
Then me and Xy bought our shoe at Rubi, and then Swensons for dinner.

Afterwards Xinying headed for her chalet and the rest went to ECP. Aweserm.
Anyways everyone had different schedules that day and it was kinda hard to coordinate. Its a pity that Yuerong couldn't make it :( But oh well i'm damn happy that Xinying enjoyed her birthday. Hehehe :)

Pictures will be uploaded next time !

Bye ! ;)

#693: Freedom !

2011-11-15T03:50:00.000-08:00

HELLO. ITSOVERITSOVERITSOVERITSOVERITS O V E R !

MY O LEVELS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR !

yeap that's my freedom calling me . yay. yay. YAYYYYYY.
no more being binded by books, no more teachers giving me that your-gonna-go-ite stare, no more feeling guilty when i don't touch books for a day, no more feeling that i have not tried enough, no more facing of bitches, no more no more no more its all gone !
YAY.

And most important of all, i know i tried my best.
O levels is my best attempt in exams so far. :')

SHOPPING , ASTONS, FOOD, DRAMAS, USS, RWS, KTV, FREEDOM,
HERE I COMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. ;)

#692: 11.11.11; A special day ?

2011-11-11T18:14:00.000-08:00

Life's awesome.

okay HAI :))))

i meant to post this on 11.11.11 cos i feel that the date was very pretty but some circumstances happened and i saved it as a draft. But meh, i'll just take it as 11.11.11. ;)

So backtracking to the long break last week, I was busy recovering and shopping and watching dramas and maybe some time for working. Up till now, O's have been pretty smooth for me. Work wasn't that nice but shopping was great :)

Anyways i have not recovered yet. The actual date now is 14/11/2011, so yeap that's 2 more days to Xin Ying's birthday and one more week to Wei Sin's ! Oh and, O's is ending tmrw (at least for me and bio students ) ! I'm still excited even though its one day later than the rest.

AND THERE'S SO MANY THINGS I HAD TO DO AFTER O'S :

- XINYING'S BIRTHDAY. WEI SIN'S BIRTHDAY! :)
- Shopping !!!
- Learning how to cook (like better , edible , FOOD) !
- SUSHI MAKING with Wei Sin !!
- Sleepover !
- Resorts world sentosa!
- Work !
- Jogging/Swimming/Exercising - thosethingswedoforahealthylifestyle
- Sing k !
- ASTONS
- watch movie !!
- WATCH ALL MY DRAMAS :)

Oh and last but not least..

F O O D T O U R ! ! :)

okay i've been pestering Yuerong alot for this cos i feel very food-deprived. When it comes to being food-deprived , i mean all those food that i don't get to eat cos i'm too busy :(
So to make up for these hehehe i'm gonna pester ppl to go on a food tour with me .

OK the more i talk about it the more i crave for it. So i shall end here.
Last paper for me tmrw, hope it'll be smooth !

Ciao ! ;)

#691: Make the days count.

2011-11-07T01:19:00.001-08:00

Don't count the days, make the days count instead. :')

Okay haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii !
I'm feeling better and i changed my blogsong heheheheh ;)

Many people are probably mugging for history tmrw but here i am, blogging.
But its okay, since i am a geography class students. LOL.

Today i chatted with my dad and yeap, life's turning for the better.
There's less family arguments, less miscommunications, less misunderstandings, more tolerance, more communication, more harmony. That's a good thing cos' i used to dislike being at home. And yeap my dad is supportive of my choice of course. So is my mum. And if i really want to go to Uni, they'd support me as well, but that is only if i'm able to make it. Hehehe so now i'm just hoping for things to turn out the way i want.

Oh and daddy told me something today. He said ' 害人之心不可有，防人之心不可无。'
Which meant that you shouldn't have the intention to harm others, but you shouldn't put your guard down either. I totally agree with that.

Alright back to studying!
Shall end this blogpost with a cute picture of Jang Geun Suk ;)

Ciao !

#690: River flows in you;

2011-11-06T04:17:00.000-08:00

CIAOSSUUUUUUUUUUUUUU !

O's are ~~OVER!~~
Haha okay no just kidding I self proclaimed holiday :(

But on the bright side, the hell week is over!
Meaning no more annoyingheavycontentbased subjects like Humans, Sciences paper 2!
*jumps and squeals*

So far I kinda had exam luck and got through the hell week fairly.
But I know I can't slack too much, there's still Chinese and Paper 1 for chem and bio.
Go me! Hehehe there's so many things I wanna do after O's and I can't wait.
And I also finished watching YAB (ikr first time in prolly 5 years) and aww Jang Geun Suk is cute like asdfghjkl :')

But mehhhhh I'm down with headache sore throat slight flu and fever today :(
Hopefully I'll be alright by Tuesday to study with Sharlene!

Right now I have so many unwritten thoughts but I can't straighten them out so I shall just leave it as it is here.
Byeeeeeeee!

P/S. I'm craving for Starbucks :(

#689: So hard.

2011-11-02T04:28:00.000-07:00

I get this tinge of insecurity when things go a bit too.. Smoothly.
Cos everytime I think that everything was going well, something comes along and screws my everything.
I hope it won't be the same when it comes to results. :/

#688: So close yet so far.

2011-10-29T07:41:00.000-07:00

2 Papers down!

Perhaps O's aren't as scary and terrifying as I thought it was.

I over- overestimated it. Hahah.

And did I mention?

On the day when I'm supposed to take Maths P2, I dreamt that I overslept till 4.20, sleeping through 33 missed calls. Wtf and in my dream I felt so horribly horrendous and I was so guilty and scared. That was the worst nightmare ever.

But I figured that the reason why i felt so horrible in my dream was because I failed without even trying. Failing without trying is prolly the worst possible way I could ever disappoint myself.

How demoralizing.

Oh but on the positive, it was only just a dream :')

And it didn't affect my paper that day. Hehehe yayness.

I must continue to add oil and endure yeah ;)

#687: I can do this.

2011-10-24T06:55:00.000-07:00

First paper down. O's wasn't as scary as I expected.

But wait till next week comes.

Next week's gonna be the true definition of hell.

I can get through this.

#686: Insecurities.

2011-10-22T04:46:00.000-07:00

One more freaking day to O's.

I'm not supposed to feel like this. I'm supposed to have that confident feeling that everything is going to be alright, and I'm so going to enjoy my after-o's life. But no. I feel so inferior and i'm not prepared enough. I feel like i have not studied hard enough. I know where i stand. 30 points for prelims. That's cos i didnt study. But now? I'm still not trying hard enough. At night, before i sleep, that little voice inside my head would repeatedly tell me, your not trying hard enough. Not putting in enough effort. Next day that little voice disappears but is subconsciously haunting me. Yes i'm studying hard and I'm improving. but.. that's just self consolation. Say i have high expectations of myself, call me a perfectionist. I know what i can do. But right now, what i'm doing is not enough. Not hard enough. I can even imagine myself taking back my cert, looking disappointed, fighting back my tears. And around me, people will say, look, it's alright, at least you tried your best.

But the question is, did i ?

#685: Our deepest fear.

2011-10-15T09:28:00.001-07:00

' Timo Cruz: Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. '

- Coach Carter

Certain days I need some solitude. Some peace. Days like these make me wanna throw my phone into the sea and shut myself out from the world. Thinking too much kills. All of us should feel good about ourselves and not let others' judgements define you. I'll bear that in mind.

#684: 好的事情

2011-10-14T09:25:00.001-07:00

休息是為了走更長的路
你就是我的旅途
都是因為你我一直漫步

想要跟你一起走到最後
但我遺失了地圖
誰給誰束縛誰比誰辛苦
愛到深處才會領悟

好的事情最後雖然結束
感動十分就有十分滿足
謝謝你是你陪我走過那些路
痛是以後無法再給你幸福

好的事情也許能夠重複
感動時分就算紛紛模糊
不要哭至少你和我記得很清楚
愛是為彼此祝福

想要跟你一起走到最後
但我遺失了地圖
誰給誰束縛誰比誰辛苦
愛到深處才會領悟

好的事情最後雖然結束
感動十分就有十分滿足
謝謝你是你陪我走過那些路
痛是以後無法再給你幸福

好的事情也許能夠重複
感動時分就算紛紛模糊
不要哭至少你和我記得很清楚
愛是為彼此祝福

不要哭至少你和我記得很清楚
愛是為彼此祝福

Talked to Weisin and Hakiim joined us by chance. Fufilling. :)

'There are three types of person; one that avoids the drama, another that creates the drama, and lastly the one who gets the drama.'

Which one are you now?

#683: Cherish

2011-10-10T10:32:00.001-07:00

Define friendship.

#682: Behind these hazel eyes.

2011-10-10T09:02:00.001-07:00

Ciaossu!
Life's been pretty aweserm, except for the O Levels preparation part. ._.

It's been long since I last posted, and everything's turning out better than I expected. Life's like a beautifully crafted puzzle, waiting for us to piece up the missing pieces. I mean, when I stepped into Bedok View, who was I to know that the people who were once strangers are now part of my life? I don't regret my past, instead I treat it as a lesson learnt in exchange for something better.

I'm really contented with what I have now. I feel so much more carefree and I can finally be who I wanted to be. Finally. Life's awesome :')

And I'm happy cos one dear friend is returning back to my life. They say what are friends for? I guess this is the meaning. One year of misunderstandings, finally cleared. I really really miss her a lot and I was so happy and smiled like a retard for one whole day heheh. I'll always be here for you alright :)

Anyways this few weeks have been hectic. Didn't really had time to relax but i'm glad that Joshua pulled all of us out for some break hahah. Johnny English was aweserm. :)

And school have been nice for once, to let us not have lessons anymore. Finally, some time for revision.

Alright wish me all the best alright, 12 more days to O's, I really want to get into my course. Bye :)

; Tiffany

#681: Life's been a busy bitch.

2011-10-01T22:22:00.000-07:00

21 days to O' Levels.

it'll be over soon :)

Anyways i've been studying and studying.
Daily routine goes : waking up, study, night study, study, twitter, sleep.
And the cycle repeats. :(

But i really really really have to get into my course so i can't stop .
Time is running out every second i'm slacking.
I need to focus. Hard.

Wish me luck kays.
Sayonara ;)

#680; Lovely Career Seminar :)

2011-09-13T08:58:00.000-07:00

Career seminar was aweserm ♥

will blog about it when im free :)

#679 : If my dream came true?

2011-09-11T11:48:00.001-07:00

Ciaossu ;)

Apple finally have this blogger app already! That'll make my life alot easier.
Yayness ;)

Anyways let's have some smiley photos ! Life's too short for us to moan and frown, and I figured smiling makes everyone look cuter in a sense so everyone smile NOW. :)

Sept holidays flew with 3-4 days of me being sick and 3 days of structured remedials + really 2 days of fun + 2 days of studying . Mix and match that up and I know my productivity level is screwed. :/ But I'm not going to complain about homework, it's 3 am now and sch is starting in 5 hours so yup.

So this week went to Aishah's house for Hari Raya, and it was aweserm ;)
How time flies, it's been already one year! Heheh. And ytd I celebrated mid autumn with my family and it was fun as well - except for the allergy part. Pictures!

Awesome fireworks :)

The thought of going back to sch later is so depressing as well, sighhhhhhh. And Im worried about career seminar tsk . Hope it'd turn out fine like, I won't look overly common or overly different and look normal. ALRIGHT ENOUGH OF COMPLAINTS.

Shall just tuck in now before I look likeapanda tmrw .

Till then stay safe ;)

P/S: Life is really fun and surprising isn't it? I guess what goes around comes around really came true and it's kind of sad in some sense. Dramas and everything, what people create on the basis of jealousy, mistrust and miscommunications. Depressing reality.

#678: Utterly disappointed.

2011-09-04T07:10:00.000-07:00

I hope so.

So i've been rotting at home for three days cus i'm sick.
Guilty much.

Perhaps this few days wasn't totally bad,
i had a chance to slow down this momentum, have some peace and calm down.
Too often things happen too fast, we take time for granted.

Oh and i was actually scrolling tumblr and found this cute link;

http://amitaytweeto.com/thequietplace/

I figured everyone deserves that break once in a while .

#677: Everyone is self centered, all that matters is the radius.

2011-09-02T08:13:00.000-07:00

Too often humans get caught up with their subconscious mind, they make mistakes unintentionally.
They become biased and can no longer differentiate right from wrong.
Whatever is in their subconscious mind will control them, and they themselves deny it, afraid that the rest would judge them.

Then all kinds of nonsense come out, trying to achieve what your subconscious mind can't .
So if you can't accept the realty, you would either do something to prove that the reality is wrong , or choose to screw up the reality.
Even if it means using anyone, those that cherished you, loved you, respected you, there for you.

If you are selfish enough you would do what it takes to benefit you. See how selfish humans can get?
Whether or not you accept reality or succumb to your subconscious mind, it's up to you to decide.
But remember, you are also deciding your karma.

Are you one of those selfish people , or a victim of those?
I was both.

Once so selfish, once a victim.

#676; Personality .

2011-08-30T10:18:00.000-07:00

Just a short-long update since I cant fall asleep.
Did some psychological quizzes and one of them is like on eating disorders.
Mental note; I'm normal and not anorexic kays.

Shall just post the results for the personality one to fill up this post.

-

Emotional

You let it all hang out, and those around you always know what you're going through.
You are not isolated from your emotions; no one would call you "cold-blooded," or even "cool as a cucumber."

Curious

You like to get to the bottom of things. You're not content knowing what someone did; you want to know why they did it.
You don't simply take things as they are and move on; you're not content skimming along on the surface; you don't feel you're wasting time by digging for the meaning of things.

Accessible

You're comfortable expressing yourself in words and actions, with no self-censorship. You believe that if someone doesn't like what they see it's not your problem, but theirs. A high score on the "accessible" trait suggests that you have a lot of friends, socialize often, and enjoy rap/hip-hop music.
You don't see the need to keep your thoughts to yourself, or to have a zone of privacy that encompasses only yourself and a small circle of friends and relatives.

Tender

You are gentle with others, both physically and emotionally. You are careful not to upset people and go out of your way to find the nicest way to say something. You naturally focus on the fact that the world is full of wonderful people, places, and things. More often than not, people with a high score on the "tender" trait enjoy spending time with children, love romantic movies, and are enthusiastic about making the world a better place.
You don't think of yourself as tough-minded or gruff, nor do you need to be seen as some kind of objective source of truth and rationality.

Passionate

You are in touch with your emotions, and sometimes you react before you think. The good news: you don't tamp down your feelings. The bad news: you sometimes say or do things that you later wish you could take back.
You do not live your life on an even keel; you do not go for long periods without experiencing some mood swings.

Introspective

You like your own company; you're a very interesting person. Tracking your own mental processes, knowing what you're thinking and why you do what you do, is important to you. Often, what's going on in your mind is more compelling than what's going on outside. For the most part, those with a high score on the "introspective" trait enjoy reading, taking long walks, learning new things, and other solitary activities.
You are not someone who is constantly looking to be among a group of friends; you never feel bored when you are by yourself.

Aesthetic

You appreciate art, beauty, and design; you know that they are not superficial but absolutely crucial to living the good life. You have good taste, and you're proud of it. Those with a high score on the "aesthetic" trait are often employed in literary or artistic professions, enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about the arts, reading, and travel.
You don't think it's pretentious to be moved by art and beauty. You're not one of those who believe it doesn't matter what something looks like as long as it does its job.

Sympathetic

You have a knack for knowing what's going on in the hearts and minds of those around you, without their having to tell you explicitly. People tend to turn to you with their problems because they know you care, and that you will likely offer good advice and a helping hand.
You do not feel that people with sad stories are just looking for attention, or have brought their problems upon themselves.

Friendly

You would rather hang out with others than spend time alone, and you'd far rather be doing something with your friends than just sitting around. You're happy in a crowded room, club, stadium, or auditorium.
You're not a private person who is ill at ease in a group; you don't view excessive socializing as a waste of time.

Warm

You have a genuine interest in other people. You're a natural host, and are always thinking about how you can increase the happiness of those around you. When friends have problems or are in trouble, you're usually the first person they turn to for aid and comfort. Scoring high on the "warm" trait suggests that you are among those who enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.
You don't always say exactly what you're thinking; you don't like the idea of causing anyone pain because of your criticism.

Tata.
Till then stay safe ;)

P/s. Finally efforts paid off, can't wait for money hehehe ;)

#675: One pile of unspoken thoughts. .

2011-08-22T10:13:00.000-07:00

This sudden urge to blog, yet backspacing everything I've typed.

#672:

2011-08-19T04:40:00.000-07:00

I failed my dpa so now my dear haters you can laugh at me all you want . :)
But I'm not gonna let this bring me down.
Gonna work even harder.

#673: Deep down inside.

2011-08-18T18:26:00.000-07:00

We are all humans hiding our true selves with masks. And there comes a time that we can't remove the masks without tearing our own skin.

You see parents abandoning their children just for the sake of money. Greed.

You see humans capturing sharks, cutting away just their fins and throwing them back to the sea to let them slowly bleed to death, in pain. Cruelty.

And in the end you also see that humans don't really trust each other for fear of betrayal. Over sensitivity.

Hidden feelings. Facade. Sensitivity.
Everyone has it deep down.

#672: Lies, cuts like a knife.

2011-08-18T05:58:00.000-07:00

Especially lies.

So tell me; how could you bear to lie to someone who trusted you so much?

#671: Different.

2011-08-13T07:43:00.000-07:00

'If I told you exactly how I feel, you would look at me differently. '

That's why it's hard for people not to hide their feelings. Low self-esteem.
Everyone tend to have another side to them.
We are all different and people would judge us, in one way or another.

Friendship, conflicts, pain, doubts and misunderstandings.
They're all part and parcel of life.

But most importantly, we learn to stand up for our own values, admit our mistakes and move the fuck on.

#670: Life like a roller coaster.

2011-08-09T21:44:00.000-07:00

Ciaossu!
I know I said I'd study but wellll.
Just a short break? Heh.
Using my itouch to blog now ^^

Things have been hectic.
I kinda forgot what happened these days.

First thing first, my Dpa.
Got called up for interview so yup.
I tried my best and I think I did well so if I don't pass i'll just try JPSAE again. *determination*

Watched Harry Potter as well, with Eric and Yuerong haha.
Joel and Jonathan's birthday passed too.
And dinner-ed with XinYing / Joshua hehe.

Thats about it I guess?
Have been mugging and not really socially active ohno.
Not used to it but well, TWO MORE MONTHS.

And I must must must get into the course I want cos that's gonna be my dream.
I want to revisit Japan and London and leave my footprints at Venice, Korea and Paris ;)
I want to be part of people's joy and smiles.
And bringing joy to people is going to make me happy. :)

So I must really jiayou!
TIFFANYCHONGJIALING,
YOU CAN DO IT.

BYE.

#669: 说话不必说到那么绝，做人不要做到那么过分。

2011-08-02T05:01:00.000-07:00

Its like people turn out to be what they said they won't . Or what you think they won't. People who said they cared are actually curious. Or pretend they cared but don't even listen. People whom you let live and forgo, didn't do the same to you and is still constantly bitching about you. And those people who don't even know you, judge you. They know your name but not your pain. Sometimes I really don't give a fuck but it's just disheartening to see that even friends whom you trust, who witnessed it, kept quiet, and even bitch along. Wtf.

Don't they ever feel any sense of shame or guilt ?
Like, their conscience never ever haunt them?

#668: Sucks to be soft-hearted.

2011-07-29T20:43:00.000-07:00

Hi isn't it awkward when you accompany someone cos you feel sorry for her that she's gonna be alone but end up pangseh-ing you for the first half of the time?

EW.

Guess it sucks to be softhearted.

#667: Unspoken thoughts

2011-07-28T06:50:00.000-07:00

I've not really been myself these days.
Some days I can just coop myself up at home doing nothing but studying.
Sometimes I can just forget what I did a moment ago.
I tend to find myself in a daze, letting wild thoughts running through my head.
And I began to doubt myself, judge myself.

Then this question started to plague my mind;

Why the fuck are you being so nice when people are still going to judge you in the end?

#666: Npcc in a glance.

2011-07-16T22:37:00.001-07:00

This is going to be a sincere, honest and long long post.
I wanna seize this moment to post because all my feelings of Npcc are still fresh, here with me.
And i hope that someday, years later, when i forget all my feelings about Npcc, i can come back here and read this post again.

This is going to be an honest answer . Not to others, but to myself.

I still remember why i joined Npcc.
My first impression of Npcc came to me during Sooc 2008, and the leaders taking charge of my class were none other then Yun Jie Ma'am and Joanne.
From Sooc 2008, i knew there was something special and fun about UG, but i don't know was it.
I aspire to be like those leaders and i, too, want to make a difference.
That's why i joined npcc .

Sec 1 :

the innocent, childish, toot and retarded us. ^^

and we had a wonderful (best) batch of NCOS.

I could vividly remember the first training we were all called into a room in the AVA and Mr Foo stared at us like we were criminals and asked us why we joined Npcc. That was the first time my heart skipped a beat in npcc. We even had a tough crazy PT on our first training. At that time, my squad had 41 people. Generally all of us was very enthusiastic and we were told that we have alot alot of potential. Those were good times I cherished, even though we get scolded, something about me accepted it willingly.

But those times didn't last. New batch of Ncos took over and my squad's attendance was falling significantly. We started to grumble a lot, our enthusiasm didnt last, and one of our ex-nco commented that we are like 'one plate of scattered sand' . 一盘散沙.
Whatever happened to our enthusiasm ?

Then everyone fought hard for LCP. Look how small our squad became.

I even remembered some of my squadmates didn't get it and some bitch got it and was flaunting it around. Somehow i felt sad and actually teared wtf LOL. Silly me. ._.

But through LCP i did gained some confidence cos' there were actually 5 tops and i was one of them . My cadet life was generally blissful and happy LOL.

Oh i joined PDS when i was in Sec 1 too. :)

Meanwhile i bonded with some of my squadmates and formed clique. Truthfully speaking that time was an innocently and happy part of my cadet life.

SEC 2 :

Sec 2 is probably the most memorable part of my cadet life.
Npap, March Camp, Sana, Atc, CSSP, courses and courses.

Npap was really fun because i got to know many people.
My social circle was widened and.. the feeling of being part of a parade is so awesome. ;)

As for march camp, I remembered holding Wei Sin's hand throughout my first night walk.
Silly me and silly times haha. :)

SANA was a very fun experience cos' of area 10 and i still remembered i got sabotaged as an ah lian cos of the 123 shake thing LOL. that sort of became my signature move for a while.

Of course, not to forget..

ATC

i can still remember i xia suay for 10 seconds cos' my voice went out of tune in front of the whole atc ._.

that camp made me felt really bonded with Area 10.
I got regconised for the first time as well, female emcee and overall female best camper.
That kind of feeling i get is like a tingling kind of happiness, unbelievable.
That made me become more confident as well. At the very least, i can talk in front of crowds.

OH i also met an awesome friend at ATC too - Mr Tj tan.
AND MY ATC GROUP - BLACK AND WHITE IS SO AWESOME MARVELOUSLY AWESOME ;)

SEC 3 :

Sec 3 was bad. really bad. I can say it was the turning point of my life ?
I was trying to cope with studies and cca . but i guessed i failed in both ways. ._.

Sec one orientation camp, Campcraft comp, Npcc cross country, March camp, Speech day, STC, CIBTC, LMSC, Farewell party, Cca leader course, Lesson plans, Japan trip, SOOC planning, March camp planning .

Campcraft comp.

March camp - best ug campfire i ever had.

Stc :)

Called up to do the hot-cheer or something liddat while the guys did push ups :x

This. Is. Epic. ;)

CIBTC - teletubbies.

LMSC

my lovely Prata ! :)))

Japan !

Squad bbq !

So yeap.
Things werent smooth for me. Despite being active, putting in efforts, enduring through hard times and conflicts, i couldn't get what i want. Until now i still don't know why i didn't get the post i wanted, and i regret not asking why. All those tears, sweat, laughter that i put in, it wasn't bullshit. Atc overall best camper, march camp female best camper, all those acheivements. It all seemed like it didn't happened at all when i found out about my posting. And my whole impression of Npcc changed.

I wasn't recognised for my efforts, became a backstage squad ic of my squad for 1 year.
As things started to fall apart and more conflicts happened , i started losing interest in Npcc.
And i became quite rebellious too . almost initiated mass pon . ._.
But i didnt want to give any trouble so i ended up going for cca actively.

At the end of the year was Japan trip and squad bbq, which brought my squad closer.
Sooc planning brought me , Yuerong and Xinying closer. Oh my dramas too.
By dramas i mean..

' Slut, bitch, roll down the stage into the pigsty or rather coffin, big fuck, fail exco, mad disgusted, suck up, flirt, karma, prostitute, clown acts, shit assumptions, '

these kind of dramas. ._.

But at least i get to know who my true friends were and i became stronger.

As for Sec one orientation camp ?
'Excos are only supposed to plan and make sure things run smoothly. '
So well, i've done my part. ;)

Sec 4 :

Sec 4 was so much more awesome.
I learnt to live and let live.
SOOC, Pya, March camp, Hrc, Speech day, and finally, farewell party. :)

Its like just a moment ago all of us are saluting to our Cls passing out but now, the future Cls are saluting goodbye to us.

PYA

HRC

AND Farewell party was super duper awesomeeee!

From throwing berets in the rain to doing pumpings to doing jump shots and crazily running and screaming all the way to Np room ;)

it was damn awesome and i'd swear whole school was staring at our madness.

And i went home with Pink panthers and a heartshaped box.
Honestly I didnt expect any gifts so thank you thank you thank you all so much :)

I suppose my squad was most bonded in initial Sec 1 and End of Sec 4.

At the end of the day, i realised i do love Npcc.
I can say i don't care/not admit and stuff but thats just egotism :x

Even though there's plenty of conflicts but it all boils down to the fact that they are my squadmates, and they are there for me when i need help . No point just thinking of the conflicts that happened and make my own life so miserable.

When i cried during march camp, some of my squadmates immediately comforted me.
When i was scared during march camp , Wei Sin held my hand to sleep.
When i was facing low self esteem and didn't turn up for one of the squad training, Joel asked me why and talked to me.
When i rolled my eyes and offended someone *rolls eyes again* , my squadmates supported me as well.

(all these pictures are taken at the farewell party and i took a picture each with everyone there. IT WAS DAMN HARD TO PERSUADE YONG LUN. )

One of my seniors once said,
'Its the UG Blood. If you have it in you, its gonna be with you forever.'
Once an Np-ian , forever an Np-ian . ;)

So if given a choice, i'd still choose Npcc and put it as my first choice.

And I'd like to thank all these people.
I thank the cadet leaders for holding this farewell party.
Thank Yun Jie Ma'am, who's like our mother and watch us grow up.
Tzu Ying ma'am, for her scoldings that made us wanna work harder.
Haziq Sir, for being the nicest CI i've ever seen, we'd always be motivated to put in effort with you around.
Jian bin sir, for your efforts and hard work and everything you've done for us.
Eric sir, for being a super duper strict and awesome and funny CI :)

And lastly, the cadets that i once taught that made my day a lil brighter.

Thank you so so much.

[ I hope my lil mermaids will soon grow up and become strong dragons , its a promise. :) ]

Last but not least, i wanna thank my squad because...
everyone would do anything for the rest if they are in trouble.
And all of us always have the same damn reaction after we get scolded unreasonably.
And we stick up for each other when we get treated unreasonably.
And we can talk about anything under the moon and the stars.
And we have our stupid retarded lame claps and inside jokes we have within our squad.
And I so so love that spirit that everyone has during march camp when we do our CL cheer.

Lastly, I love that Npcc shaped us, from when we were young and innocent sec 1s to now, friendly crazy close comrades. :)

I'm gonna miss my squad.

#665: Not good enough.

2011-07-13T04:30:00.000-07:00

Call me paranoid or what but I'm really worried. Im worried that what I've done isn't enough. Worried that if I really went on and pursue my dreams I'd lose all my good friends. Worried that no one will be there for me. Worried that I'd lose my all so peaceful and happy life now. Worried that ppl will just forget about all those friendships and drift away. I know people don't stick with you forever and life still have to go on but I'm still worried. Worried that I'm simply not good enough.

Its like I'm so insignificant.
What's happening to my self esteem?

#664: Irreplaceble Memories - Squadmates .

2011-07-10T04:13:00.000-07:00

Ok Guess what i'm back because i realise i left out Jerrick. :x

HIS BIRTHDAY WAS ON JULY 5TH, our Mt oral ! HAHA sway !
Anyways silly me actually texted him at 2am but he didnt reply me..
until i realise at night that.. i actually sent it to the wrong number :l

okok anyways Jerrick is one awesome brother. ;)
there's only 2 people i'd completely trust in my cca, and he's one of them.
Reason is simply because he didn't betray my trust and he too, trusts me.
Truthfully speaking I'm really glad to have him as one of my kakis in npcc , if not i would might have jumped down the building and die.
You know the feeling ? The feeling that you can completely trust someone, knowing that they definitely won't betray your trust ? He gave me that exact feeling.
So I know i can always trust him with my problems.
Plus he give really good advices/analysis and he sticks up for friends muahahaha.
Its easy for me to find a close friend, but it takes really alot of luck to find a real friend . :))

THANKYOU JERRICK.

I hope your problems will go away soon and stay happy and awesome and nice and really, smile always . ;)

Oh and !
my Pop is coming soon on this friday :(
boooooo that sucks im lazy to prepare the uniform but im looking forward to the party. :x
and i went to look at previous posts on my squad's fb group and i realise..
we really went through alot alot.

Then there were little sweet and epic moments.

'We, the NPCC Cadets/CLs from year 2008 to 2011 have braved the storms and large pounding waves NPCC has thrown at us.
We eventually turned out to be STRONG individuals and leaders who are willing to do CLOSE to anything for one another. This is the TRUE power of friendship. I certainly hope that cadets in future can be like us. Building EVER-LASTING relationships in this platform known as NPCC and eventually changing their whole future in a positive way. '

- Joel .

This kind of posts is particularly touching , especially when it comes from ppl like Joel. :')

Another post :
What do you love about BVSS NPCC? i want to hear your response. - Joel

'my answer: All my squadmates. For everything that i have done in NPCC, to tel you the truth.. it was all for you people. That's the reason why i try my best in NPCC. I really treasure the friendship and bonds which we forged in the last 3-4 years. It was really the BEST one in my life[So far]. I will not forget you guys. '

- Joel

Where to find more awesome squadmates ?

P/S. And eh that freaking made me cried that day okay because i was facing some self contradictions within myself and doubting whether i was accepted in the squad or something. :(

#663 : Regrets and mistakes, they are memories made.

2011-07-10T02:36:00.001-07:00

HI.
i have this sudden urge to blog hehehe. (its going to be a longlonglong post. )
I have decided to take Hospitality & Tourism, or anything to do with Tourism.
Me have this dream to travel around the world ,
so anything t do with Tourism's gonna interest me in any way. :)
Oh and did i mention , im adding Venice to one of my die-die-must-visit countries.

Anyway last week was Yuerong's birthday hehehe.
SOOO. Xinying and me supposedly meet up at 12 to buy Yr's present.
then i changed the timing to 1.
then i forgot to do something so i went out of house at 2.30 instead,
when we're supposed to meet Eric at 2.45 . Eric was on the verge of killing me LOL. :x

That night was spent at the ktv with xy yr eric woon and their 3 friends.
oh and nicholas joined halfway haha.
but the dinner at 85 after that was awesome :)

this whole chunk of awesome shit below is dedicated for my dearest TEE ♥

HAPPYBIRTHDAY .
ok its one week since her birthday :l anyway she's like super duper the awesome x 123456789 because we have like similar interests and everything.
Plus plus we experienced similar kinds of drama. That's how we got closer during July-August AND we're there for each other when that happened last year hehe. I've always feel comfortable talking to her about my stuff cos' at the very least she won't judge. And telling her my stuff makes me feel that someone out there still cares about me and im not some stupid lonely bitch *sobs* LOL (ok or at least she makes me think that way :) hehe tee if your reading this , thank you for being so awesome . ♥

Anyways life's been good .
Friday was awesome because it was well spent with;;;;;
.
.

deng deng deng !

MY AWESOME CLASS :)

It was sports carnival on friday. hehe i joined the frisbee team for fun :x .
my class didnt FRO. but after the first round we lost all the way :l
Close and tiring fight. Whatever happened to sportsmanship manzxc.

but it was ok because almost whole of the class was there to support the team despite the sizzling hawt weather !

Awww :')

(so Mr Tay was the one who took this picture
and that kinda explained Sharlene's blissful smile xD )

And apparently smart me brought my cap cos' i knew its gonna be sizzling hot but smart me didn't expect to keep getting hit on the head by people too. >:(

After that was BV Superstar.
Are you thinking what i'm thinking ?
YES Sports carnival + Bv superstar = one whole hall of smelly & sweaty people .
It wasnt any significant except that my class was supporting Billy .

Our day ended with a chemistry date with Mr Ong . ;)

YESTERDAYYYYY.

accompanied Yuerong to get her blogshop stuff haha.
went to daiso, and we actually wanted to go flea omg .
but we were totally drained and tired ahahaha.
i got my box file and embosser and color sticky thingy and sticker and message thingy.

like omg my life shouldnt be so eventful right :(
i'm feeling so guilty naozxc.

But one last last last thingy.
today is Vera's birthday! :))
(ok i realise i've been doing dedication posts . why so many july babies ! )

HAPPYBIRTHDAYZXC VERA .
she prolly won't read this but oh wellllll.
She's someone super duper cute and crazy and she's like one of the few people i can go really high with (that means she is high too) .
And she's always the first to find out certain things about me hehe.
And mind you she can keep secrets well ;)

With her around in 4E1 just makes 4E1 more pleasant and less dead kinda thing.
Stay awesome and happy alright ! ;)

OK this took me 1 hour plus.
there's school tmrw. :(

BYE.

p/s. Nurarihyon season 2 is outtttt!

#662: Distorted

2011-07-01T21:55:00.000-07:00

I finally understood why people always tell me not to trust anyone but yourself.
Silly and naive me still live in the idealistic world.
Your own existence is always not as important as how you think it is.

Looking back, i find the world is so damn distorted. So damn ugly.
People can smile to you in your face yet stab you hard on the back the moment you turn.

' Always be slow when judging others. Be severe with yourself, but give others the benefit of the doubt. Time will reveal the character of a person.'

Guess it'll take me a longer time to trust anyone. As well as myself.
I'm not angry . I'm just upset with myself.
Upset with how i don't ever learn from my past.

#661: Rainbow after the rain, love beyond the pain. Maybe good things all have to come with a wait.

2011-06-30T01:24:00.000-07:00

; 'Save your time, effort, money and system. '

- Was what Yz told me today. To be honest he is actually a very good friend that can differentiate right from wrong. Sure he might seem cold and the words he say can be mean and insulting but deep inside he's actually soft hearted. I'll make a mental note alright. Thankyou :)

Shall make it a short postttt. :)

School have reopened , extended curriculum is starting next week.
I'm done with complaining, its time to mug hard!
Awesome awesome . Btw ive decided to drop subjects so i could focus well .
I think i made a right decision though some ppl dont really agree. Ah well. :x

ANYWAYS , last friday was twin's birthday ! :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TWIN :)

HEHEHE. She's freaking awesome. Honest. :)
She's someone really really great and she's the longest and first friend i made in Bedok View.
Despite how immature i was when i'm in lower sec, she stood by me and were so understanding.
Although sometimes our opinions and ideas may differ, we never really quarelled over this kind of things. Hehe. Maybe if we did, it would be a misunderstanding or miscommunication sort of thing.

Words alone cant describe how wonderful she is. :)))))))))))
Its like she witnessed all my ups and downs through secondary school life.
Sure, we may have our own circle of friends but we are still friends aren't we ? :)
Afterall, true friends doesnt necessarily mean spending alot of time together.
As long as they understand each other, its enough.

Aye aye the rest's been told to her through the letter.
I hope she liked it :)

STAY HAPPY AND CUTEEEEEEEEE :)

MELOVEDIEYOU OKAY ! ♥

Anyways anyways last week i also watched Mr. Penguin Poppers with Kietti and Eric too.
It was awesome shitzxc.
Except that my leg got soaked in Kietti's sprite the minute i sat down.
And it was the whole big bottle. Not abit.
i laughed until half dead HAHAHA.
imagine 95 minutes of feet soaked with Sprite wtf LOLOL.
Epic movie HAHAHA.

I also went to Cosfest with Lynn on Saturday.
It was awesome . :)
pictures next time cos my brother's a bitchy bitchy bitch.

BYEEEEEEEE. :)

p/s. Yuerong's birthday in 2 days yayyyyyyyyy!
p/p/s. Last training tomorrow. :(

#660: Laughter is timeless. Imagination has no age. And dreams are forever.

2011-06-21T23:51:00.000-07:00

Sup cruel world, i'm back .
hehe its been long since i blogged.
Ever since i got an itouch i've not been on the computer, which is quite a good thing .
At least i can focus on studying now .

But today i have a sudden urge to blog. Can't live without blogging haha.
Its the last week of holidays already .
I can say. Unproductive of me.
I have 4 more days left, i'm gonna make it productive i swear. :l

Anyways, i went to school on Monday.
After that went studying at Teo's with Rong.
Ended up quite unproductive though. Sighhh.

And yesterday i went to Astons. Too bad I'm an Astons freak. ♥
Alot of people went; Xinying Eric Cavan Kietti YuetChoon Alena Wiratha Hanson .
Lunch service wasn't as good as the dinner one :/
So poor Wiratha didnt get his steak and Yc dint get his lunch too.
2 ppl watched 7 ppl eat.
But after that we went BK so 7 ppl watched 2 ppl eat. LOL.
Cheynola, 4 ppl monopoly dealt . :)
Kietti's bag is like a freaking arcade HAHAHA.

After that i went shopping with my mum , awesome HAHAHA.
She walked into F21 like there's nothing :(
But in the end i managed t drag her into New look LOL.
Hehe my mum is getting cuter and more bimbotic everyday. ♥

Anyways small sidetrack :
I realise I have undercover fans. -deep sigh-

People are judgmental as always.
No apparent reason also would get judged.
No apparent reason also would get criticized.
#uglyworld

But its alright.
Being the center of gossip makes me feel cool, *like-a-superstar* B)

Each day God sends His angels to guide us. We don't expect to see them with wings.
Instead, they come in disguise and we call them friends.

I'm glad i have many of these angels. :')

#659: 摄影是让瞬间变成永恒的魔法。

2011-06-17T12:22:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, at some point, everyone is tired of being who they are.
Everyone started being themselves, and they got hurt.
That's why as time passes, everyone always have a few masks on their faces.
And usually the more people we meet, the more masks we put on.
These masks don't disappear till people worthy of your trust tears them down.

Ever felt like when you've been really happy for quite awhile, been really strong, then one day a huge wave of uneasiness overwhelmes you, leaving you to be tormented in the past?
Those fucking unhappy times ?
Those times that you said you won't mind, and you thought you would let it go .
Those feelings that just came back and rained on you as one big storm?

That day, i swear i felt as if the whole world came crashing on me and i was left to remember all the unhappy times.
That day, i didn't need anyone and just want to be left alone and sort out my thoughts.
That day, i felt as if being too nice isn't really a good thing.
Get misunderstood. Get accused. Get taken for granted. What else?

You know the feeling like everything you once believed in, was just utter bullshit ?
I made something my world, and that was my biggest mistake.
Because when effort doesnt pay off, when your faith gets betrayed, you get taken for granted;
Trust me. What you feel's gonna be worst then dying.
Now, as i look back, i feel so dumb.
All the time i wasted, all the effort i put in, all the feelings and memories.
I'd still care, even if i said i don't.
Feelings, will never disappear.

Then you know the feeling like you were trying to do your job, but get accused and misunderstood?
You know the feeling, like someone you trusted alot, didnt trust you when you were at your lowest?
You know the feeling, when all this comes continuously like one unbreakable chain ?
You know the feeling, of having good intentions but unknowingly get accused and misunderstood?
You know the feeling, when someone you thought you could rely on, didn't understand you. And worst still, that person decided to judge you when they can't understand you ?

Those feelings arent nice at all. Not all all.
And you try experiencing all of those shit continuously in one year.
Try having all those feelings return to you all in one day. Wtf.

But its okay, i'm alright now.
Been through the shit, that's enough.
I just hope i won't get taken for granted anymore, and that people learn to cherish each other.
That goes for me too, of course.

; '不要为不在乎你的人哭。因为在乎是辛苦的。'

#658: People. Attachments. Expectations. Disappointments.

2011-06-17T11:15:00.000-07:00

CIAOSSU. :)

i'm like back. Finally. haha :)
I've been mia-ing. like busy watching 下一站，幸福 and everything :l

Anyways ! My holidays have been really eventful i guess .
Quite productive also ?
haha.

Went to Xinying's house to study ...
then i had sleepover at Yuerong's.
i think her sister like me HAHAHHAHA.
i mean i'm so nice right. xP

then had Astons for dinner,
Tee Toh Teo Ho Phong :D . HAHAHA.
that dinner was funny ttm, Windows 97 , the chicken chop and the fish , LOL.
Laughed like there was no tmrw.

pictures :)

Everyone :)

Me likey this pic :)

DROOL OVER THIS PICTURE NOW MUAHAHA. xD

then Housewarming at Brenda's. :)
Alot of people went haha.
And i swear Brenda's house is damn nice x.x
Went to thin my hair and trimmed my fringe so i was kinda late that day.
then then went t her house slack slack . had bbq. laughed. camwhored. played with Kitty's ipad.
learnt monopoly deal . hahahah and i was the phone woman of the day, quite a fun day . xD

but idk why i wasnt in a really party mood cos some overwhelming unknown uneasiness was biting me away. :x
Hehe but still , thank Brenda being an awesome host. :) .

Loveliest host :)

Brenda's place anywhere take picture also nice la :( .

hehe more pictures are up on facebook . :).

Anyway the overwhelming uneasiness came with me till the next day.
which wasnt very good.
so i kinda threw quite a bitch fit and cooped up at home the whole day.
plus internet was screwed too. :l

But today was better . haha.
I'm at the last episode of Autumn's Concerto / 下一站，幸福 already.
Its an awesome nice sweet touching drama. I kinda teared alot throughout the drama :l .
Hope the ending's nice. :)

I'll end with a quote.

'如果时间能够倒转那有多好，当然那是不可能的事。
但是能有让时间暂停的，那就是摄影。'

BYEEEE :)

#657: I can't forget, but I can pretend.

2011-06-06T02:36:00.000-07:00

SUPPPPP :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

a thousand smilies hahaha.
Chemistry spa's over !
i think i've done quite well ? heh hope so. :)

Anyways , went for my last BV bazaar on saturday .
Turned out quite fine i guess.
Met Adelyn and Lynn for breakfast at LJS first.
headed to bazaar and it was freaking raining :@

Nothing much there. Boring ttm.
Did Henna, had food .
Made cute keychains.
hehe i made one for myself and i was like writing green tea ftw ! on the keychain .
OH and I happen to snatch one green tea from Eric HAHA. xP

then we took some polaroids. Went to haunted house.
Haunted house was like epic fail . I could even shake hands with the people there.
The person who's supposed to scare me got scared by me instead.
It's like we paid to crawl. and scare the people inside. -.-

let the pictures talk alright.

Henna's like awesome. :)

hehe polaroid ! :)

Anyways i finally found Polaroid pogo that's selling in Singapore.
http://findmydotcom.com/digital-camera-2/polaroid-pogo-instant-digital-camera/

No need ship blahblahblah whatever crap. hehe happy ttm .
I'm going to save up for it. But i find myself damn waste money ;x.
urgh but its for the sake of memories. should be worth it. gahhh ttm.

RAWR ANYWAY THIS POST IS LONG OVERDUED,
i was distracted while posting so tata.

BYE. :)

#656: It is so hard to be beautiful in a world so ugly. /-

2011-06-01T06:46:00.000-07:00

HULLOOOO awesome ppl from A to the Zeees.

ok i don't think anyone would actually read my blog actually.
i'm self entertaining for my own sake.
cos' its like everytime after i blogged i feel so good.
Like i answered myself and did some self reflections or something :) .
Wonder how would i survive if blogger doesnt exist anymore *touchwood* :P

Anyways, first official sit-down written O level's paper is over.
I'm praying hard i'll get an A.
I tried hard to put some colorful language. I did. x.x

In addition, holidays have started. I mean school ended.
Means its time to mug hardcore. Real hardcore. :l
Holidays = Homework Only Little Idle DAYS. x.x

So we're gonna have school for one week. 3 days passed already.
Today's the third day. Had emaths camp omgwtfshit. 5 hours.
then had bio spa. hehehe.

AND AND AND.

Today's my chioest maid's birthday! :

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(fml the picture i take with him damn ugly so i purposely chose two ,
one that i looked cui, the other he cui. )

ERICATEO (:

I know he won't read this. But ohwelllllllllllll. i'm nice. ;)
Even though he's like super unawesome and always fight with me and always insist he's right and say i ugly and fell asleep while talking to me and laugh at me when i can't talk on skype and always puke when i bhb and also always deny i'm awesomeeeeeeee,,,

BUT;

he's the chioest and nicest and best best best maid ever HAHAHA.
Ok i admit i keep disturbing him with his boats and will shunbian thickskin abit .
I'll also suan him and make him stop and run stop and run alot when go running. :l
Then I even suggested buying a pencil case filled with PENS with Yuerong and drew a sailor card for him :x .
ooopsieee. but i'm sure he loved his present alot, cos' its from awesome me and Yuerong :D

Heheheh, ERIC if your reading this,
thankyou for being an aweserm and loyal friend. :))))))))
Aren't you touched or something ?

OK HE SHOULD BE. :D

Toooodles. :)

P/S. I got my itouch finally ! yayness ttm :)))))))))))))))))))))))))

P/P/S. GSS SALES ARE HERE. i want to shop :(

#655: I know crying won't change anything; But still it is the best pain remedy.

2011-05-27T20:53:00.000-07:00

I should start doing this ;

1. 遇到不想回答的問題：直視對方的眼睛，微笑、沈默。

2.走路抬頭挺胸，心情不好時，不想跟人招呼，點頭微笑，逕直走過。

3 .請記得：好朋友的定義是，你混的好，他打心眼裡為你開心，你混的不好，他由衷的為你著急。

4 .做自己的決定，然後準備好承擔後果。從一開始就提醒自己，世上沒有後悔藥吃，而我永遠有個 B計劃。

5. 自己分內的事情，努力做到一百分。

6 .接受自己不過是個"小小的我" ，但眼裡要能夠悅納"大大的世界" 。

7 .如果你真的喜歡一個人，就給他自由。如果他能回到你身邊，他就是你的，如果他沒有回來，那他也永遠不屬於你。

8 .不要試圖給自己找任何藉口，錯誤面前沒人愛聽那些藉口。

9 .不要隨意發脾氣，誰都不欠你的。

10 . 不說謊話，因為總有被拆穿的一天。

11 .別低估任何人。

12 .你沒那麼多觀眾，別那麼累。

13. 過去的事情可以不忘記，但一定要放下。

14 .別人說的記在腦袋裡，而自己的，則放在心裡。

15 .社會是有等級的，很多事不公平，別抱怨，因為沒有用。

16 .你永遠沒有你自己想像中那麼重要。

17. 錢能解決的問題統統不叫問題。

18 . 無論何時說"我愛你"，請真心實意，無論何時說"對不起"，請看著對方的眼睛。

19. 永遠不要以貌取人，慢慢地說，但要迅速地想。

20 . 找點時間，單獨呆會兒。

21. 不是自己的東西不要，就是再喜歡也不行，要懂得放棄。

22 . 不要覺得是生活虧欠了你，其實是我做的努力不夠。

23 . 努力向前，再努力向前，再努力一下下，願望就會實現！

24 . 永遠沒有堅持到底的失敗，也不會有半途而廢的成功。

25. 三人行必有我師，沒有人會比你弱，好學、上進的心態。多問問自己："我努力了沒有？

-Facebook Like.

Life's awesome .
Gonna earn some money tmrw. ;)
Shall blog later.

BYE.

#654: It's the things you can't see coming that are strong enough to kill you.

2011-05-24T02:20:00.000-07:00

Its been a good long week since i posted. :o
Anyways, i got back all my results.
I can say i'm quite disappointed. Especially bio. ._.

But there's nothing to be done now i guess.
This is a wake up call for me to thoroughly wake up, study hard.
Guess the life of studying everyday no facebook no computer no anime comes back again.
Booooooo :(

Other than that, since chinese o's are coming, we had MTSSS, 3 periods of chinese.
Pretty effective actually. haha.
Nothing much really happened except going to eat with Xinying and Yr, and Eric and hanson came along too.

Also had cip on Sunday. I kinda felt guilty :l
But well, ate kfc, watched pirates of the carribean (on stranger tides) with
Mahesan Zach Yuerong Natasha and Sofea.
Lovely movie, Jack sparrow is freaking charming ! ;)

Then life carried on as usual, busier then ever.
Finally settled the class tee shirt designs, but may have to change the design again because the class isn't willing to pay $20 for 5 customisation. omg. ;x
changing and changing and changing . Rawrrrrrrrrr.

And today had npcc day make up ! cui drills.
Congrats to those with awards. :)

haha anyways chinese o's in 7 days, i should fight hard!

BYEEEEEE.

#653: Not everyone deserves second chances.

2011-05-17T09:41:00.001-07:00

And that's what i'm constantly reminding myself about - second chances.

I kind of miss the good old times, but i know nothing would change the reality that took place.
I can only linger around the memories and be grateful that it took place.
I learnt my lessons, been through the pain, all in a hard way.
So i'd take care not to repeat history, never again .
I've changed.

Anyways !
Recently i've been quite addicted to ...

Nurarihyon,

which isnt really a good sign cos' now i'm head over heels over the main character :x
What to do, anime characterisation are sometimes too wonderful we wished they really exist.
but urgh i can keep on dreaming. x.x

Night Rikuo ♥

kyaaaa x.x

Stayed up till 5 plus watching this until Eric decided to pangseh his x family and me to sleep. LOL.

And the best part = my brother thought i woke up early to use the comp and he was like, why you so early on comp ? (Y)

So I practically finished this 26 episodes in 2 or 3 days?
hehe anyway there will be a season 2 in July ! *wishing it'd last like khr / one piece *
all the super duper aweserm anime's gonna come out in july, yayness ttm. :D

And and, there's school tmrw, fol ttm . x.x
Fingers crossed for tmrw.

Byeeeee.

P/S. Starbucks makes me sleepy ._.

P/p/s. 6 months ago, this day, i'm in Japan :(

#652: You can never have the best of both worlds.

2011-05-14T03:30:00.000-07:00

CIAOSSU ! ;)

I haven't been blogging recently because of exams,
but now exams are over ! yayyyyyyyy ! :)

i think i kinda screwed Amaths and Chemistry. And i failed physics. :l
anyways my orals was pretty screwed too. HAHA.
the most ironic question given to me : What makes you laugh ? LOL.

So i actually bullshit about green tea and that laughing give you less wrinkles,
which is the exact opposite, and the teacher is actually a bio teacher. omg . x.x

And chinese wasn't any better, i was told to relax cos' i was damn nervous. :x
Don't think i will score. HAHA.

And that marks the end of exams.
And guess where we went?
A for.....

ASTONS! xD
(after 2 ~~years~~ weeks of pestering HAHA )

Since XinYing had dialogue in the dark , Tee Teo and me went to Sticky first,
and she met us at orchard .
Shopped ,then headed to Airport T1 for Astons ♥

Kay shall let the pictures talk. :)

I miss Astons :(

did this picture make you drool or smth ? :x

And then must camwhore abit abit,

then camwhore somemore,

And more camwhore. :P

gonna eat yuerong up. :D

HAHA then this guy here dont want take picture with us ! shy shy.
SOMEMORE MY SKILLS SO GOOD.
But poor teo he have to help us take pictures HAHA.

Me likey this peek :)

Sticky ftwww :)

Then i became super duper tired and started to emo at one corner LOL.

Picture credits = XinYing's camera x)

tired ttm HAHA.

I'm basically rotting at home now. and chinese o's are coming wtf. x.x
shall get my ass off the comp and bed soon. :l
Bye .

Everyone can forgive and forget, but people will never forget how you made them feel.

#651: I love you because you loved me when I didn't love myself.

2011-05-10T21:28:00.000-07:00

The best feeling in the world is knowing someone is missing your smile. :')

Hi earthlings.
Its already wednesday. omg. :(

Lets rewind to Monday.
I kinda rotted at home.
Oh. i ate and slept to 9 plus then studied geog on skype.
NOT BAD RIGHT. Skype can study .

LOL joke.

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Had geog paper yesterday and it was pretty fine, passable. :D
Emaths on the other hand was, uhm... ._.

after that Tee and Toh came to my house to study.
Before that Tee and me went to look for Toh first,
then we forgot what floor she live on LOL.
So we pressed 9,10,11 .
So i alighted at 9 and i was damn confident cos' her house the door damn alike.

Me : *confident* XinYingggggg ! Hurry open the door ! kuai dian kai men ! bu yao chong liang liao ! (stop bathing! )

Tee: *thought that we found the right place too*
You know there's something called a doorbell? LOL. xD

Me : *super confident* OH. -PRESSES DOORBELL 11 TIMES - RINGRINGRINGRINGRING

House: *dog : bark bark *

Me Tee : OOPS. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL.

damn paiseh HAHAHA.
in the end Toh live neither on 9 , 10 or 11. LOL.
HAHAHA. joke.

After that Tee and Toh went to my house to study study .
End up they explore my house LOL .
But we did study abit.
my house is kinda conducive for.. sleeping. :X

slept and skyped at night again , using mum's phone.
Physics gg-fied because i seriously have mental block against physics. :x
And i swear i can never let my brothers see who i'm talking to, he was like
' Orh hor 我跟爸爸讲你有3个男朋友，一个叫____ 一个叫____ 还有一个叫_____ 。 '
LOL. -.-

Wednesday : Today

Omfg the weather is super duper hawt everyday :l
thankfully i sat directly under the fan for physics. hehe :D
but the paper is gg-fied.

its decided. I'm dropping physics over Amaths.
*deep bow to Mr Leeky*

Okieeeee heading to study Amaths nao.

keeping fingers crossed for tmrw, bye ! :)

#650: Making every kind of silence, it takes a lot to realise.

2011-05-07T07:17:00.000-07:00

Meek smile;
- I kind of miss Japan. Alot.

Hehe Japan was kinda like my turning point in my life. :)
Met very awesermzxc people and got closer to some.
Looked through the pictures and i'm like. wahhhhh t.t

Haha anyway i felt like i rotted alot for 4 days.
Friday i went to study . studied like only abit.
then went jogging with Tee Toh Teo cos' i felt kinda guilty for ps-ing *cough* ahem, TEEYUERONG the last time they went. HAHA.

But oh screw cramps. @:
Shouldn't have ran. :o .
Poor Eric, stop and continue stop and continue. x.x .
Sorrayeeeeeeee. *takes a deep bow*

Stamina deteriorate alot alot. Booooooo.
I like damn troublesome when i go run HAHAHA.
kk ikr. feeling guilty already. :x

Saturday rotted at home + watched General Elections till 3 plus.

GY lost ;(
Saddening much. Sighhhhhhhhhhhh.
This year's GE is much more competitive. Rawrrrrrr.
Was texting Jiayang and both of us was swearinggggg at __. Haha.
But seriously, Gy lost? :(
we lost like, a total of 5 ministers i think . :(

Ands, Sunday went out to study and tata.
Tuition .
Studied at T1 with Kietti, Joshua, Eric, Yuerong, XinYing.
yeahs joshua , IKR.
And poor Kietti thought it was the Airport T1 HAHA.

And in the end we got chased out and Wooon keep pestering us to watch movie. ._.
Rawr.

Fast forward Fast forward, had Mother's day celeb at Jumbooooooo ! :)
hehe its almost like a tradition.
the last year we dint went there, Meiling retired. Aww. :l

Had an awesermzxc day there. Hehe picts soon :)

Vye.

P/S. Sg's weather is so hot i'm gonna dai. x.x

#649: I hate goodbyes, i hate these tears in my eyes .

2011-05-05T09:24:00.000-07:00

I hate goodbyes, i hate these tears in my eyes .
I hate myself for the way i feel about you everytime .

Over editted ? I think i look alienic in this pic.
But oh well, its a happy pic so it doesnt really matter. xD

Its been around one week since i've blogged? haha.
i have been having sleepless nights, irregular sleeping cycles.
I can have insomnias up to 4 plus and still not sleep until the alarm ring. like wtf.
then next day i'll sleep from 4pm to 10 pm then study till 4 plus again fml . x.x
i think i'm very pig but i cant do anything about it x.x

BUT i'm not late anymore.
which is a very good improvement since now i'm like punctual for one week.
heh, proud of me not ? xD
Haha but i'd thank my twin alot, she gave me morning calls !

And I studied like fuck for bio .
If bio doesnt give me an A i will bangheadwallanddie. like seriously.
HAHA cheynola. but i find the paper doable and challenging ...
but i screwed my section C . what to do ? its over. xD

Lessons were normal on Tuesday and Wednesday.
Its like wts? lessons and holidays during exams LOL. ._.
Presented conversation part with Aishah, hoho overall i think our performance ok ? :)

I forgot to say that our conversation adds up to 12 minutes.
=> will be a strong point to defend my not-so-good-and-simplistic vocab HAHA.

And i also found out that 4E3 saw my group video and i was like omg xiasuey ttm ! x.x
I was wearing fbt shorts and Xu Dong said i was obscene,
I FORGOT WE FILMING + I WAS ALREADY LATE WHAT. x.x

hehe and many other things happened.
Like Goru jyu ended . its a super fun course. xD
and and and. Skype is fun :D
Me and Xinying was testing testing then i accidentally pressed the mute and unmute button.
HAHAHA funny ttm .
Then Yuerong joined the conference and we started arguing how alienic and echo-ish our voice is. LOL.

Anyways, in simpler terms i've enjoyed life alot, in this year :D
I'm glad i'm super glad to have friends to see me through this.
Life's aweserm, at least for now :)

Did i mention Sharlene said i look like the happiest girl ? :)
i think i am alot alot happier this year, many people think so too.
Thats good, whenever i read my archives i feel a tinge of sadness.
Now im glad that i went through all of it . :)

New goal = ITOUCH, STUDY HARD, A1s :)
Im almost there to my itouch, aim = end of this month ! :D

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE :)

'i hate love.

#648: Strange how laughter looks like crying with no sound, and how raindrops look like tears without pain.

2011-04-28T23:40:00.000-07:00

Suppppppp !

Exams have started, and so far i think my papers are okay ? :)
hehe and i've been a pig i know. Everyone knows. :x
But last thursday , monday and this friday i'm earlyyyyy !
Early you know, early ! :D

haha and i went t the movies last friday .
watched Never say Never.
haha Justin bieber was cute.
But no bieber fever for me, JADEN SMITH ! ♥ HEHEHE .

Jaden Smith is super duper adorable you know! :)
and Nayli was telling me she was more amused by Toh and Tee than the movie HAHA.
Joke ok ! HAHA.

and i also studied. alot ? hmms.
Went to T1 to study and the environment there was super duper awesermzxc ttm .
Thanks Sharleneeeeeee ! :)
but she forgot to tell us that it was super cold too LOL.
numb fingersssssssss !

RAWR.
and you know you know.
Aaron yan has a new album ! yayyyyy :)
And Antoni is finally into the industryyyy . yayyyy.

I think he looks cuter in Xing Guang though . :O

HEHE anyways i'm supposed to go out to study in like 20 minutes but i'm still here blogging.
I'm obsessed HAHA.

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ;)

P/S: I LOVE JADEN SMITHHHHHHH ♥

#647: Our heart is like an unfinished puzzle, that is why we search for the perfect one to complete.

2011-04-22T23:58:00.000-07:00

No one ever dies a virgin, cos life always fuck you in the end.

Why is life always filled with expectations ?
Why is life always filled with so much drama?
Why is life always filled with so many hypocrites ?

I'm surprised i have haters that are jealous of me .
I'm surprised that the haters actually bitch about me to my friends.
But i'm even more surprised that i have friends who asked the haters to shut up.

I'm not only refering to one incident, but many incidents.
2010 and 2011 make realise many things and who truly is there for me when i'm alone fighting.

I've seen some who swayed because of my haters.
I've seen some who remained neutral but supported me emotionally.
I've also seen some who became strangers with me.
And honestly reality's telling me who's not true but i'm just keeping quiet,
holding on to a little faith.

Its through times like this that we realise who are our true friends,
and who are the ones we should really cherish . ♥

#646: An eye for an eye makes the world goes blind.

2011-04-20T05:05:00.000-07:00

‎' The best camera in the world is one's eyes.
The most beautiful photos are memories. '

boo exams are coming. :(
motivation deficiency !
piggy syndrome ! >:(

have been late for school this few days, i should stop being such a pig la :(

#645: My eyes tell the secrets that my lips will never say.

2011-04-18T04:58:00.000-07:00

"When I was 5 years old, my mother always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down "happy". They told me I didn’t understand the assignment. I told them they didn’t understand life."

— John Lennon

HI.
I desperately need motivation.

Lack of motivationnnn !
I wanna attend adam khoo workshop again. :(
motivation deficiency is horrible, especially when you are two weeks away from exams.
and wtf the exam timetable isnt out yet. ._.

and maybe its just pms or today is mood down down day . :l
i looked through old pictures. remininsced .
my past shapes me and brings back awesome yet hurtful memories.
gahhhhh . shagged. Knowing that thinking won't bring back good times is just painful .
i'm glad that the good times existed though. ;x

i miss japannnnnnnnnn. i miss soocccccccccccccccccc. i miss march campppppppppp. i miss atccccccccccc . i miss lmsccccccccc. i miss my cadet life. i miss the fun times with my squad. i wished i cherished those times we had together more.

and everything, ends with a sigh.

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

#644: Remember when .

2011-04-15T22:58:00.000-07:00

RAWRRRRRR ! :@

I feel emo . :l
Mid year exams are coming up and im like, ishouldstudy ishouldstudy ishouldstudy.
and school life is really suffocating . booo.
O's are approaching in 5 freaking months.
Shitzxc.
And i'm still down here rotting away, being late for school everyday .
I feel like a pig.
OK i am a pig already . Certified.

Exams are starting on 26 April .
Ending on what , 12 May???? ):
so long ! and 12 May would mean that its nearer to o's ! :l
shaggedddddddddd.

I should like stop whining stop complaining and wake up. x.x
so i should start studying !

Byeeeee

Remember when I cried to you a thousand times?
I told you everything, you know my feelings.
It never crossed my mind, that there would be a time, for us to say goodbye.

#643: Speech day 2011 :)

2011-04-10T00:27:00.000-07:00

SPEECH DAY IS OVER ! :) :) :) :)

Yay, life's gonna be less busy , for real ! :D
Next up's gonna be NPCC Day, then POP. and tata, no more :)

Was having a splitting headache for speech day. Boooo. :l
after that went up to watch performance, was awesome :D
Angklung very cute ! hahaha !

After that went to Market 85 to feast with
Meng Qian Jerrick Eugene Yuerong Yu Kang Jing Xuan Xin Ying Ernest Me :)
Mq Jerrick and Eugene need to rush home cos' it was too late,
so in the end they seperate tables x.x

The rest kup $6 each then buy food to eat ! HAHA :)

Kay, pictures ! :)

GOH ! :)

The last time my squad's gonna march together as one :)

Wei Ting look like a doll :D

Xinying ! :)

Jerrick ! :)

Yuerong ! :D

Fanny!

YingZhou :)

Shakul ! :D

hehe love two of them ;)

Lovely picture :)

I'm so gonna miss them :l

FEAST @ MARKET 85 :D

Satays, Wu Xiang

CHICKEN WING, STINGRAY !

All the food cleared ! whooooo :D

YESTERDAY ! :)

Kay yesterday went to Joel's house to do EL project ! :)
sorry i was late x.x

Joel's house very peaceful and very nice ! *envy*
Had a fun time there, and Joel's parents was very nice too ^^

I think we are on task ! yayness ! :)
Pictures are on facebook, i'm lazy to upload. xP

K.
There's bio test tomorrow,
bye ! :)

Cry, I know how hard you tried.

#642: Pain makes people change.

2011-04-06T08:37:00.000-07:00

Why respect someone who doesn't even respect you?

You want respect, you earn it.

OKAY basically.
I shouldnt even bother about people who don't respect me and as long as i didnt do anything wrong, i'm not obliged to care. :D

Life is filled with this kind of dramas.

BUT.

TRUST NO MAN. FEAR NO BITCH. LIFE GOES ON.

Actually i'm kind of glad to meet people like that.
I get to see how wonderful i am compared to them.

#641: You think only with your eyes, so you are easy to fool.

2011-04-03T10:18:00.001-07:00

You think only with your eyes, so you are easy to fool. - Karate kid.

Supppppppppppp!
its a busy yet fufilling week!
i'm feeling on task, yay ! :D

i will catch up on alot of things this week.
hopefully this week will go well :)

study study ! mug mug ! jiayou jiayou ! :D
studying at home is better afterall i guess. heh.
OH. I found a late study partner - Jun hao !
HAHA yayy.

anyways !
i missed flag day on saturday because i had to go malaysia :(
saddeneddddddddddd! gah.
but coincidentally me and Yuerong reach about same time !
danggg i could have saw her if i wasnt held up xD.

Malaysia was a total bore ! :X
have been busy on saturday, travelling from places to places to pay my respects. heh.
watched Karate kid. 4 times omg. LOL.
make up for last year june ! haha.
Karate kid is aweserm aweserm.
Love the quotes. ;)

Hopefully tmrw will be a better day !
(i have 2.4km run tmrw omg x.x )

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !

'You said if life knocks you down, you can choose to get back up.
Well i'm trying to get back up, but why won't you help me ? '

#640 : On the first page of our story, the future seemed so bright.

2011-03-29T09:54:00.000-07:00

'You can be the rain from the cloud when it's storming' ;
Or you can be the sun when it shines in the morning. '

I didn't regret joining Npcc .
I didn't regret my mistakes.
I didn't regret my actions.
I didn't regret the pain i went through.

It was all worth it, because i'm stronger now .
Everything is coming back, yayness. :) .
The pride in being an npcc-ian = aweserm . hahaha .

Its been so long since we get shouted at.
So long since we marched as a squad nicely.
So long... Those days.
And soon, we'll be passing out seperated.

Booooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. :(

P/S. Have been late recently, i'm such a pig :( .

Sometimes I wish I could save you ;
and there're so many things that I want you to know' .
I won't give up till it's over, if it takes you forever I want you to know.

#639: If you know me then you won't judge me. Should you judge me then you don't know you.

2011-03-26T21:51:00.001-07:00

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you
I'll wait here forever just to see you smile
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

Through it all, I made my mistakes
I stumble and fall, but I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I didn't have so, I won't let this go
'Cause it's true, I am nothing without you

All the streets where I walked alone, with nowhere to go
I've come to an end

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes, it falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find (what you will find)

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everythings nothing without you

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go (I want you to know)
With everything I won't let this go, these words are my soul
I'll hold on to this moment you know, as I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

True friends won't judge, friends who judge arent true friends.

I'm not made of metal you know.
I'm not diamond either.
Its not like i won't get scars, i won't break .
Nothing can recover on its own miraculously, and i'm no exception.
It takes time. It takes tears. It takes pain.
Assumption sucks, jealousy kills.
You chose not to trust me. You decide.

What are words if you don't mean them when you say them ?
When i say that you do mean alot to me, trust me, i mean it.

#638: Thoughts read unspoken, forever in doubt.

2011-03-26T02:24:00.000-07:00

Ciaossu :3

Its been a week since school started. Cuiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii .

Haven't blogged about Saturday.
Went to Pds' bbq first, then went to chalet.
It was raining so starting the fire was hard ;x .

Took me 2 hours to reach downtown east wtf. D:
and while waiting for the bus it was creepy and there were mice running. D:

Anyways, chalet was awesome , and funny HAHA.
Many people were there and i made friends !
Its ironic how i met my neighbour there where we dint talk at all before that .
and slept at 4am cos' walking is good for health. LOL.
breakfast @ Mac @ 8 am.

Back to chalet and slept and talk crap and sing campfire songs LOL.

Anyway, pictures !
Many camwhoring ones so be prepared HAHAHA.

Xinying (:

'You think i 3 year old kid uh ? ' HAHA.

NAYLEEEEEEEEEEEEEE (L) .

A decent pic with Eric ! HAHA.

LOL @ Haiqal's face :D .

Yenyennnnnnnn ;)

Arshad was damn funny HAHA.

When i just reached chalet; smelly and dirty but ppl all camwhoring already :(

I made Eric hold the pinkpanther LOL.

Fishball cheeks ! :D

Xinying had the i-just-woke-up face xD.

I look hornily retarded in this pic LOL.

Spastic. :P .

Dslr ! :P

SMILEEEEE :D

Yuerong wants to kiss Nayli but Nayli was unwilling
so Nayli want to hit Yuerong :x

Wei En came in the noon!

Tried to pull Eric into the picture ;x

Hakiim's brother.
My neighbour ! :P

My daughter inside the stomach xD.

Birthday boy :D

I like this picture !

Walking is good for health!

There were many gray ppl ;x

Yenyen was unprepared :P

Pig no.1 :D

Pig no.2 :D

YUERONG NERD NERD NERD (L).

XINYINGGGGGGGG. (L)

Ok random/overdue pictures :)

I love dslr ! :(

Baking for 14feb !

HEHEHE :)

Spastic ! :P

Sch reopen !

Tata.

Pieces of memories fall to the ground;
in front of your eyes, it falls from the skies.

#637: 'Your smile is a beautiful lie ;

2011-03-24T03:43:00.000-07:00

The stepbrothers.

Watching someone you just saved to die in front of you is painful.
Very painful :(

He died. ;( .
wtfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff.
Ace died. I cried again omg x.x.

No one said its gonna be easy.
But neither did anyone said that trying isn't allowed.
I need to wake up.

I'm not perfect, but i keep trying.
'Cos that's what i said i will do from the start.

#636: Your gonna catch a cold, from the ice inside your soul.

2011-03-18T19:25:00.000-07:00

Ciaossu ! :D
I'm going off in awhile so its a short post here aye. ;)
Homework is shit man . seriously.
Screw asknlearn . -.-

Off for Pds bbq in awhile, won't be back till tmrw night.
Hope chalet will be awesome. :D

Ayeee! Pictures :P

HRC :)

Cool or what ? :o .

You see that very tall poleeeee?
I was stuck at that position x.x

In preparation o.o .

And its amazing how our squad grew from........

to

tata ! :D
Kind of incomplete but welll . :P

Next uppppp : Singapore botanic gardens ! :P
HAHAHA.

I was high during SBG, that siao Yuerong also xD
On the way there it was raining. Booooooooooo.
Then i was asking cher the retarded questions that taxi uncle told me.
HILARIOUS HAHAHA.

Anyways !
My group consist of Shanelle, Yuerong and Brenda,
Allianced with : Ernest Kenneth Meng Qian Teck Hou Yu Kang Faris . :)

Hohoho it was damn fun :P
Cos' my sister got dslr dslr dslr dslr ! HAHAHA.
5% of her dslr pictures is nature, 5% her pics,
and the rest is me and Yuerong's camwhoreeee ! HAHAHA.
Her stalkers gonna come after me and her luh !
If that day wasn't a bad hair day for me i'd take more x.x

Quote Brenda: Omg ! Stop taking pictures lah HURRY UP LAH !
HAHAHAHA.

Ayeee! pictures !

Shanelle's one still not uploaded so make do with Yukang's one first :P

GERALDINE ♥

MQ kor and dear.
I have dimple ! I insist i have ! xD

ERNEST, didi :P

My sisterS. HAHA.
Screwww my eyebags too x.x
(her stalkers gonna come after us omg) .

This shot is nice !

Hohoho we and alliance won the first prize ! :P

Cher and us :)

HAHA random shot. Ernest's hat damn cute !

Nothing's gonna change my love for youuuuuuuuuu! :P
I tagged Wira at the heart to make him jealous. LOL.

Yukang took this :O .

I look like i'm taking picture for couple HAHAHA.

She has the same name as me ! :P
i'm Tiffany Chong Jia Ling and she's Chong Jia Ling .
Cool much ? :D

XINYINGGG I have dimple !

I think this picture is damn cute ! :3
I was going around doing the fishballl cheek thingy. xD

HAHA the gangster !

Liu Chen ♥

Sharlene partner ! ♥

NATASHA ! ♥ :D

MADELINEEEE ! ♥

ZARIFAHHHHHH , and jingle bell. xD ♥

Camwhore !

The flowersssssss ! :P

and the last camwhoring shot ! :P
With TEEEEEEEE ! ♥

SBG was awesome ! :D :D :D :D
IM OFF, BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

P/S. Zarifah's mom cook very the nice ! :P

#635: Don't depend on anyone, because even your shadow leaves you when your in darkness.

2011-03-16T06:01:00.000-07:00

Ohaeyooooooo!
I'm back ! hahaha, its been a long time since i've done a proper posting.
Ikrrrr, i've been waiting for pictures. xD

Many things have happened, eventful 2011 huh .
Sec one camp celebration, pon-ing of ssgt , march camp, cny, study season.
Many many many many events. :)

Cny was awesome anyways !
Camwhore, Polaroid, Fireworks, Midnight rideeeeeeee ! Awesome.
Haha and my longggggggg-never-keep-in-touch-cousins are back.
Enough of crap,
Let the pictures talk okie. :)

SOOC ! :D

Nicely decorated ;) .

Black market prep! :D

ICECREAMM! Exco celeb. (;
Love the people, its damn fun working with them.

CNY!

What's new year without fireworks ! hahahaha :P .
Was acting like Harry potter with those wands, expecto patronum *poom* ! HAHA.

Whats malaysia without camwhore ! HAHA.

2 lovely princess cousins (; .

JATON, my cutestttttt cousin (; .

Camwhoreeeeeee!

HAHA retarded much ?

WISH UPON A STAR. :D.

I miss her. ):

HEHE i feel tall HAHAHAH.

I miss himmmmmmmmm !

He's the best. I'm serious. ;x .

He've grown so so mature, ok and fatter. HAHA.
He was once so thin, so diligent,
but because of his family background he mixed with the wrong people,
he make mistakes, he wakes up, he repents, he grow up, he matures.
He din't blame his friend who scolded him, and instead he thanked him.
In 5 years he's grown up, experienced way more things than me, and he's only like, 12 now ?
And sometimes i think that the way he thinks is even more mature than that of adults,
why do adults make mistakes without thinking about their children ?
I'm so glad that he's now living so happily.
Love his smile, he's the best. :D .

MUGGING SEASON !

Haha i lost tsuna. ); .

Studied at Eric's macs. :P .

watched Gnomeo and Juliet after exams.

Tata !

Decent post isn't it !
Filled with pics :b.

March camp is over too !
The best camp ever, the true test of our squad.
Was quite surprised with the recognition we got, but can't deny that our squad did deserve it. :)

AWESOME, awesome is what we are,
MIGHTY, mighty is who we are,
Boys say hu, girls say ha ,
Hu ha hu ha,
CLS CLS, Oooh lah lahhhhhh ;) .

Everytime after this cheer, i feel damn awesome.

The 3D2N camp was awesome, and i love my group as well. :D .
Taupok is aweserm, hahaha.
I'm glad its worth it to trust you guys, and i'm glad you guys did tried your best and improve :D
Best improvement award wasnt' given for nothing, it proved that you guys are something. :D
I hope you guys truly enjoyed the camp and will always remember it. ;) .

The next day after camp was HRC.
omg x.x

Had to climb this uhh. idk, 2 or 3 storey high pole ? o.o
then jump down . LOL.
kind of shiok, i shook x.x.
HAHA but alot of epic moments !

Next station was flying fox but it rained. FML FML FML FML FML. D:
So for the rest of the day all of us sang songs, ate, and played games.
Booooooooo ):

After that went on bus 2, and omg slept very unglamly.
Practically whole squad was tired from march camp and sleeping on the bus.
VERY UNGLAM. T.T

Tuesday i was down with migraine in the morning.
Crawled to chemistry in the afternoon for practical then went back to rest again. ;x

Today I took a cab to school cos' i was afraid of being late for Mrs Haffidz's class.
The $5.40 was worth it cos' the taxi uncle very lame ! HAHAHA.
then went to school and started to spread the jokes that uncle told me,
JUST NICE ME AND NAT TOOK THE SAME TAXI HAHAHAHA. Best (Y) .

Had combined class for english today,
Talked to MQ for SS today,
Awesome datalogging during chemistry today .

Waited for Teo to pass me my current affairs book, then slacked with Lynn and Jerrick.
Taidi-ed for awhile and off to starbucks with Yuerong and Teo and Toh . :D

GREEN TEA + STARBUCKS = ?

high-ed like mad, Nayli came and HAHAHAHA worst.

Today was awesome !
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! :P

#634: Resolved, forgivenand forgetten.

2011-03-05T22:18:00.000-08:00

She apologise, i apologise, misunderstandings clarified, everything settled .

I hope those un-involved people who only know how to flame and flame and flame non-stop would stop making matters bigger while those people involved are trying to clarify everything.

Its between me and her, and the peacemakers.

Peace out -

#633: Fucking perfect

2011-03-05T10:10:00.001-08:00

Mistreated, Misplaced, Misunderstood.
It's enough, I've done all I can think of.

Everyone wants to feel needed, appreciated, accepted and wanted, i'm no exception.
Then i start to distant away because i dont feel accepted, i wanna run away from those eyes that judge.
I may appear confident but my self esteem is just like a pathetic glass, so fragile. Easily broken and if pieced back, it will never be the same. The scars are still there.
I have no confidence to face those people who judged me, i'm afraid to be hurt. I'm staying as far as possible.
And should the people i seriously need leave me, the glass will shatter into more millions of pieces, unable to be pieced back again.

Its 3am now and i'm still dwelling over this issue.

I find myself the stupidest and most retarded girl ever trying to help and end up getting blamed and my efforts arent appreciated and im a problematic bitch that doesnt knows how to listen and afterall i'm only treated and used like a dog , as and when ppl's happy i can become the aic and as and when ppl's not i will just become a useless piece of shit, ready to be disposed. Not only that i will have to endure the biggest bully ever created - Facebook , and what can i do but act as if nothing happened with tears streaming down behind the screen ? I'm not made of metals. I do have feelings, blood , tears and emotions. The words do sting. I help because i dint want to give her stress but since i ended up creating more trouble for her and i dont really matter so i guess i'm doing everyone a favour but fucking off and die. And i think alot of ppl would sure clap their hands in rejoice and wont even give a fuck about me. They prolly wont even realise that im gone. My best present to everyone. And I bet if they read this they will be nodding their heads in agreement and say yes die earlier man, fuck off and die quick .

I've cried so much from 11.30 to 3.30 i'm still in front of the screen.
And i'm still sick.

And yeah, i suck so much so much i think people will find it so much easier without my pathetic ideas and will delete everything that i did and start the proposal from scratch without my ideas at all. Thanks to my stupid ideas, there should be no need for any more assistants for any events anymore since the duapais are the best afterall and i think they have the rights to do whatever they want too. Whatever the small fries like me do, is all fucked up shit and it would be better if i dint exist and waste so much of their time. Even if i try to explain myself and peace out it won't work cos' i'm a very problematic, bossy, ridiculous bitch who will still end up getting flamed. It wasn't necessary for me to put in 100% effort.
I love my life.

'我是能给你一个劝解 - 感觉是暂时性的，生命才是永恒的。要活得精彩，就得靠自己去努力去吧自己暗淡无色的生活涂上亮丽的色彩。 '

I'm also trying to paint it with colors, but all the ups and downs are just painting it black again.
I'm fucking worthless.

#631: Happiness ?

2011-03-04T07:40:00.000-08:00

Define happiness.

There are so many 'why's in life.
My food poisoning lagged. So yeahhh. Fml ;(
Having this awesome sorethroat and headache and cough and nauseous streak.
Oooh ahhhh . Aweserm life. :l

goshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Didn't get my rank again. ._.
wanted to watch movie but oh screw food poisoning.
can't eat wasabi san either.

Just realised i skipped dinner too. :o .
and there's trial run tmr !
was so damn looking forward to it but, food poisoning ? meh. :/

So anyways,

ai ya dunno what to post
i know i fail lar
but if i faill rite u also fail
understand?
dun understand?
also not my prob
nvm i dun wan explain liao
waste my saliva
not saliva is energhy .

Don't worry, thats not me.
MY BROTHER FREAKING TALKS LIKE THAT.
Irritating much!

BYE.

p/s. 'I got ask you meh ? ' ' I took the initiative to tell you' - Yenyen. :D .

#630: Jar of hearts

2011-02-28T07:00:00.000-08:00

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most
I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms
And learn to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?
'Stop leaving scars on people around you, dear to you,
cos' they will leave you one by one.'

and i'm not kidding.

- Tiffany` shagged.

#629: Crying is never a sign of weakness. It is such a sign that even when you act strong, you know you have heart.

2011-02-25T07:02:00.000-08:00

At this moment i just wanna run away from everything.

Why is it that singing sad songs like Tonight, Something More, Wedding dress, can eventually lead to tears?

Why is it that whenever you tried to tell yourself everything's gonna be alright soon, it actually turned out to be worst ?

Why is it that when you finally found hope to carry on and perservere but the very next moment things come tumbling down and diminish that very hope ?

Why is it that there are so many why is its ?

Fmlttfc ;
Life.is.far.too.shagged. Liafj.

#628: To laugh with bliss on your face, it's ordinary. To laugh with tears on your face, it's extraordinary.

2011-02-24T03:54:00.000-08:00

Smile with your very heart, your very soul.

Life's awesermly busy. I'm having my motivation now.

Going strong and won't falter that easily anymore, that's me.

I know i got over it when those scathing words don't tug my heartstrings any longer.

I'm just glad i saw it all.

Those who were supposed to stay left, those unexpected stayed.

Life is returning to normal ! Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! :D

Thanks dears. ;)

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

P.S: 2 more papers to go ! Im gonna fighttttttttttttttttttt! :D

PP.S: Green tea makes me high, aweserm ! ;)

#627: Pretty pretty please ?

2011-02-19T08:48:00.000-08:00

Ohaeyo !

Shit my life , Ct1 is in 2 days . Wtf.
i doubt i can wake up tmrw lorh. ):
today's a fine saturdayyy.
went t study w. Xinying Yuerong Syafiqah YenYen.
Happy small girl bought happy meal , the doraemon had a mermaid tail. LOL.
And i xia suay-ed in front of 4 ppl today cos i was too too high x.x
by the time i high finish my ice cream melt liao . LOL.

bus-ed home. Eric was on the bus. Rawrrrr jealous jealous of his new phone. x.x
Somehow. Fuckin' perfect is very applicable right now.

Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
That's alright
Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated
Misplaced
Misunderstood
Miss knowing it's all good
It didnt slow me down.

Mistaking
Always second guessing
Underestimating
Look I'm still around

Pretty, pretty please
Dont you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than
Fucking perfect

Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing
You're fucking perfect to me

You're so mean
When you talk
About yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head

Make them like you instead
So complicated
Look how we all make it
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game

It's enough
I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons
I've seen you do the same

Oh

Pretty, pretty please
Dont you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than
Fucking perfect

Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing
You're fucking perfect to me

The whole worlds scared
So I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking
Is an ice cold beer

So cool in line
And we try, try, try
But we try too hard

And it's a waste of my time

Done looking for the critics
Cause they're everywhere
They don't like my jeans
They don't get my hair

Exchange ourselves
And we do it all the time
Why do we do that?
Why do I do that?

Pretty, pretty please
Dont you ever feel
Like you're less than
Fucking perfect

Seriously, you suck.

#626: People will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.

2011-02-12T04:15:00.000-08:00

(Source: iheartquotesle, via seven-heaven)

Omg ):
I badly badly badly want Polaroid 2 D:
Have you ever wanted a polaroid which you can decide whether to print a picture out ?
Tata : Answer - Pogo Polaroid 2 ):

But its like unavailable in sg ):
shityouuu . im gonna find it. tsktsk.

Andddd. Today went to study with Nayli Syafiqah :) .
Supposingly studying but ended up talking, i can never study outside man. x.x
oh wells. then went to get my stuff for monday . And tata. home-ed.

meanwhileee.
i have to manage my time really really really well. D:
i've been having super duper weird dreams . i.e. Me being late (and im really late x.x ) .
have been late alot of times for assembly.
I think i already have 4 pink slips that i dint submit.
Cos' i dint want detention. omg.
Friday walked with Madeline since both of us were late,
almost there but got caught by teacher for skirt.
im not gonna buy new skirt. rawr. ._.

Monday's Valentine's Day/ Friendship day !
its gonna be an extremely long and sad day at school dating with books. ):
i'd rather facebook then face books. gahhh. D:
But i'm looking forward to giving / receiving things. :P
Last year in Bv, i'm gonna have an aweserm Friendship day ! :D

And im looking forward to tomorrow !
Going to XinYing's house. :P

Byeeee !
P.s: Blaming everything on us won't work, demote one of us ?
We'll draw on it every week and you can demote every one of us then :) .
Happy demoting . :)

P.p.s : It was only just a dreamm.

#625: Sometimes it's easier to act like you don't care, than to admit that it's killing you.

2011-02-08T05:23:00.000-08:00

'Sometimes it's easier to act like you don't care,
than to admit that it's killing you. '

Yayyy !
hahaha. Hi. how's life.
O levels for me officially costs $429.
exam papers + gst. goshh.

anyways !
I have this feeling things are going on the right track for me,
i wanna thank Eugene cos' he sits beside me and he's quiet + responsible.
Best partner. HAHA.

i think part of the reasons why my results improved is because of him,
or either that its because im surrounded by smart ppl .
Left Yingzhou , Right Eugene, Behind Liu Chen,
Diagonal Jonathan / Andani. (Y) .

Love my seating arrangement, love life.
You won't see my posting often,
maybe after Valentine's/Friendship day and i'll abandon this blog for a while xD.

Byeee !

P.S: First time passing first 2011 ss test + 1st A1 for SS;; HAPPYYYYYYYYY !
P.p.s: I can't wait for HRC ! 14 March :}

#624: If some things are meant to be, they are. If it isn't, let it go .

2011-02-07T07:04:00.000-08:00

But that doesn't mean you don't have the right to fight for what you want.

On a random note :
I miss Area 10 !
Can't believe HRC is so so soon.
And after that no more seeing each other. Eee. ):
I miss seeing familiar faces, those fun people, Black and white, Justice league, Songleaders.

on the other hand,
kinda worried about acads. :x.
other school's finished Spa, our school is starting to revise.
What happened to those promised practicals during hols ? ._.

Time is never enough. gahh.
Anyways. Cny just ended, that just means 2 more weeks to CT1.
I have to, have to work very hard. My As ! ):
Have to step one level higher. If not i'll prolly have to drop physics.
Which is a no-no, can't let any more teachers down.
I'm guilty x.x .
I have to have a time plan all the way till prelims for all subjs,
if not gg.com . x.x

Kk, homework now !
Bye !

P/S. CNY was aweserm ! pics and everything next time.
PPS. I'm super duper sleepy !

#623: Asking is easy. Hearing the truth isn't.

2011-02-01T03:59:00.000-08:00

Hello Cruel World. :0
Been pretty busy heh.
Have also been high-ing during chem lessons. (L) .
Have been studying + Eating breakfasts/dinners with XinYing/Yuerong/Eric.
Have been more guai/organised cos' i'm sitting beside Eugene.

Overall :
My results have improved i think. At least for english and chem.
Bio is screwed still, emaths screwed, amaths screwed.
I'm happy with life now cos' its busy/shag/tired. :)

hahaha, tmrw's cny !
going back t malaysia, dont miss me :P

byee. :P .